I am sick to death of everyone butting into my life and trying to tell me how to live! You're not God. And stop questioning me about what God tells me, or questioning my relationship with Him. Leave me the frick alone. Things were FINE. Devin and I are amazing, I love him so much. I thank God every chance I get. Maybe this is God testing me, or ( Read more... )

Loser

thanks for making me feel
     {W.O.R.T.H.L.E.S.S}
in your eyes
&& with every selfish lie
    [that cut like a knife]
you bro|ke me apart-->;; (without a single care)
tired of the petty g|a|m|e|s
&& your +stupid+ smi\le
    [i;ll bre|ak it in two]
    {could you do me just one [f][a][v][o][r]
and \\fucking\\ k-i-l-l yourself?}
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So things are going really well right now. Me and Devin made it to one month and there isn't a single problem between us. I cannot describe how fucking amazing that is. Seriously. I just wish that we could see each other more, but that's about it. Having a little alone time would be nice. So we can practice on his kissing, haha. Well kissing in ( Read more... )

I'll watch myself fall apart, but you can't see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been.

I'm really sick of Bobby starting shit with everyone. It's really pissing me off. He keeps coming to me for attention and I can't stand it. Yes, I like taunting him at times, but honestly, his pathetic insults aren't even worth my time.
And he sits there and ( Read more... )

So nothing is getting better. I'm still depressed, still lost and confused with no purpose. I hate living like this. I hardly get to talk to Devin at all... and Bobby is being a fucking douche. He was IMing me from Kyle's aim and calling me a "dirty slut" and all kinds of stupid shit.
And I don't even have the heart to seriously concentrate on this ( Read more... )

Just as a quick entry, I dreamed last night that I was best friends with Hayley Williams. It was pretty tight. Dood, I love her.

So Tyler said that writing down all my thoughts and such would be helpful ( Read more... )

I hate vindictive little lying bitches!
*deep breath* Okay so me and Craig got to church rather early, and we were wandering around the church kinda aimlessly and I saw Ashley T., Devin's ex.
"Oh great," was my only thought.
She kinda gave me evil looks, but I ignored them. Whatever I don't care, she can look at me however she wants.
I walked over to ( Read more... )

[06:51 PM, Wednesday, January 02] ageoftheraven: I love how Kelly's so sick that she can stay home from (her two hours of) school yet she is well enough to spend all day out
[06:52 PM, Wednesday, January 02] +15408781344: Which is why i wont give her an excuse
[06:52 PM, Wednesday, January 02] ageoftheraven: good.
[06:53 PM, Wednesday, January 02] ( Read more... )

I never even noticed how much shit you posted about me.
It seems like such a waste.
Since you used to care about me.
And I used to think you were cool.
But honestly, I don't even give a fuck about you or the whole thing anymore.
I feel bad for the wasted emotions.
The wasted effort.
The wasted worry.
I'm not who you thought I was, but I've become what you ( Read more... )