i eat way too much chocolate these days.maybe that is why i cant sleep.maybe im just a fucking insomniac in this damned country.either way i ate another block tonite.i love it.aww japanese chocolate is just too good ( Read more... )

sitting alone in a small room on the other side of the world is becoming more and more easy to accomplish.i have my music, i have my internet, i have my food,and i am alive.i fucking bitch and moan way to much.sure i miss people back at home..who wouldnt ( Read more... )

i dont think i have ever posted two journal entries in one night here before, but tonight is different, I feel strange. I feel different. I feel myself changing.I dont know if it is good or bad, or if it is because i dont sleep much anymore.But whatever it is I had to acknowledge it.

i dont know whats happening to me.

so,im in love.doo deee dooo.i dont know him,ive never met him,and i dont know his name.i want to see him again.i want him to smile at me.i cant stop thinking about him ( Read more... )

I arrived in Japan on Tuesday, almost a week ago. It was a big shock when I arrived as everything is so different and the people are incredible. Everything has been running reasonabally smooth, although once again my past is out to get me. You cannot escape it. It always comes back to haunt you, and at all the wrong times. Like your birthday for ( Read more... )

BIGGEST WEEKEND OF MY LIFE ( Read more... )

I like fishing, dont get me wrong, but i fucking hate sandflies. im so cut...i have crazy ass bites all over my darn legs, and they are so rank. and itchy and it is making me so angry. I also had a mars bar sundae before..(caramel top/choccie bottom) and i got chocolate all over my new pink jacket. not a happy camper. in other news, i love alice in ( Read more... )

I love No Doubt <3 they make me feel funny..like when u slide down the rope in gym class(hahahahah waynes world quote there)..no but really, they make me feel so good and positive. I just thought I would share that with you all. Not new no doubt, really old new doubt. Like 97 No Doubt..haha ok ok enough of No Doubt ( Read more... )

being hated and hating people is the worst feeling,anger turns my stomach.Regret sucks also...I regret way too much. I am not going to regret anymore, i am not going to do anything that I know I am going to regret. I have 20 days left in this country. I hope that I can make a positive step every single day up until then, and keep on improving while ( Read more... )

Im sick of this..I have 24 days left in this country,one really genuine friend, and dont rememeber one nite that I have been out with something not fucking up. I am just as self absorbed as the next person, so I will have a fucking huge bitch about it here,where I know that no one gives a fuck. I hurt for people pretty bad at the moment, and i try ( Read more... )