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Control
"Whoa, I feel just like we're taking
Control
Of the night, of the night (yeah)
Whoa, I feel just like we're losing
Control
But if you let go, I'll let go tonight"
Control - Metro Station
im seriously losing control of my life right now. i feel like im slowly sllipping away.
im tired of this ana thing but i can't let go. i feel unwanted in this world.
my ( Read more... ) -
bleh me
im so not in the mood for posting journals right now but i haven't in a while so here goes ( Read more... ) -
bake a cake
i made a yogurt apple cake today. it almost turned out to be a disaster because i had to make my own caramel (boiled sugar and water basically). the first time i tried it burned completely and when i put water in it there was smoke everywhere. but the cool thing is that my bro and sis and i were all working together, which is a rare thing. it was ( Read more... ) -
munch lunch
i've gone from 136 lb to 129lb this week! i was soo happy when i stepped on the scale this morning. like "finally, my work is paying off". i can't wait till i'm in the low twenties and then the tens! i've discovered that i cannot completely utterly fast. i just can't, because if i do, i'll end up binging. so i skip breakfast and dinner but eat ( Read more... ) -
fresh choice/pilates
im so prould of myself ( Read more... ) -
journal
i am totally motivated today. i woke up and did my excercise tape. i even did push-ups, which i absolutely hate. i also updated my journal. it's keeping me motivated. basically my journal looks like this (if you want to make your own && model yours after mine):
for each week i have
-page 1 diets, songs, quotes, horoscopes .. cool stuff to read
-page ( Read more... ) -
join Lovely x Souls
just started a community (right after just creating an account) && looking for cool members to join.
also looking for an ana buddy for motivation, inspiration, and support! let me know if you're interested.
im 16 so hopefully if you're around my age leave me a comment.
stay strong <3 rizzy
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obsession with perfection/the media/ my hollywood idols
--- i've always been aware of my weight. even in elementary school i would compare the size of my legs with my friends. my biggest fear in middle school was being 100 lbs. now i'd die to be 100 lbs. literally i guess. it's what i'm doing now. i keep a pair of abercrombie & fitch jeans i haven't been able to fit in in four years. their my "dream ( Read more... )
