I'm sick of looking in the mirror and not seeing someone pretty.

My face...

Ugh.

I want to see me.

Normally, Venus flies through each sign in less than month. Because of her recent retrograde phase, however, Venus is currently three-quarters of her way through a four-month stay in your sign, bringing her lovely distractions your way. Perhaps you've seen a new relationship pattern emerge since April. [when I started talking to Blake] It's ( Read more... )

I'm in Kansas right now visiting ( Read more... )

Okay, I'm not making a huge deal out of this, it just made my "night".

Jackass906: have an awsome trip
im a lovely duck: bye
Jackass906: i love you
im a lovely duck: i love you too

That was cute, he never says it first. Precious. I love him.

I cut for the first time in a long while last night. It wasn't bad though, at all. I was just so fed up with myself.

Oh well, things will get better hopefully.

I get to hang out with Aly after I get my teeth filled. Until like 2:30am, cause then I have to go and take a shower cause I leave at 3:30 am tomorrow morning for Kansas. I'm excited ( Read more... )

I guess I'm just not her...and I never will be.

I'll never beable to make him happy.

I'll never beable to be like her.

We are two in the same but obviously very different.

I guess there is a lot I don't say.

A lot I don't let anyone know.

I'm going to let it stay that way.

It only fucks things up.

I only fuck things up ( Read more... )

I'm almost there. Just need a push.

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated, I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawedBut I am cleaning up so well ( Read more... )

I go to Kansas the day after tomorrow.

I'm excited.

Very, excited.

Chris pissed me off.

Some conversation about putting out, enough said.

Whatever.

Goodnight.

Hunger hurts,
But I want him so bad,
Oh it kills
But I know I'm a mess
He don't want to clean up,
I've got to fold,
Cause these hands are too shaky to hold.
Hunger hurts, but starving works,
When it costs too much to love.