I think this is stupid. They like eachother again, or never stopped liking eachother. They shoulnd't have done it because this hurts far worse then them just have not "ending it" at all. They ended it and started it again. WTF. So. Gay. I'm pissed, hurt, and angry. You can't get mad at me for the things I put in here because these are my ( Read more... )

Cam is going to kill himself tonight. He told Ifer so ( Read more... )

"danielle likes me again...yippee....just when i thought it couldnt get better."

I guess I'm pretty much burdening everyone with my feelings and problems. I'm kind of getting to the end of my rope. I don't know whether I want to stay on the ride or jump off -- nothing good is happening here for me anyways. I piss everyone off.

>Danielle

Mmm...went to the Special Olympics...came home...went babysitting...made 50 bucks...Cam came over for like 10 minutes and left again? I think he thought I was going to try and put a move on him cause he was out that door damn fast. I wasn't going to but whatever? Saul is hanging out with Tammy tonight -- grr. Whatever don't let it get to you I ( Read more... )

I'm so pissed. I can't write. I can't get the words out. I can't tell you the anger and frustration inside me right now. Mainly at myself. I'm gaining so much fucking weight and I can't fucking stop. Food is always there and I'm always eating it. My mom says it's normal. Fuck. I'm SO MAD.

>Danielle

[a] - age: 15
[b] - best friends: Cam and Aly
[c] - choice of meat: Steak!
[d] - dream date: Drive in movies...
[e] - exciting adventure: ???
[f] - favorite food: Caesar Salad
[g] - greatest accomplishment: Don't have one
[h] - happiest day of your life: Don't have one
[i] - interests: Singing, piano, boys (?)
[k] - kool-aid: Orange
[l] - love: Cam ( Read more... )

Except for the fact that Kim left, I had an amazing day. I got to miss school and take her to the airport, then Cam came over and we hung out all afternoon. Played some baseball over at Meeker. They made me be the ball-getter. Bastards. Oh well it was fun. Cam is so gorgeous. =( He makes me so happy too. I'm always laughing and having a ( Read more... )

Scratching hurts worse than cutting I found out tonight. I etched the word "DIE" into my forearm. It's burning and tingly but I am also a pussy so who knows. I'm angry. I don't get to go to therapy tomorrow cause my mom is taking Kim to the airport. I don't want Kim to go home. I get to go there over the summer. I applied for a job at Wild ( Read more... )

What's the point of me going to therapy if my mom doesn't think I have a problem? Maybe I don't. I'm pissed. I blew up at my sister. Got bitched at by my dad. Probably going to cut, again. Nice release. I'm lonely.

>Danielle

I think this is the first time I will go to bed in a really good mood in a very long time. I should enjoy it while it lasts. Cam and I hung out all night. It was great time except he sat in my mom's room the whole night but it was still a really good day. I feel bad cause Aly is grounded, but what can you do. I talked to Blake all night too. ( Read more... )