This journal is over-exposed. I'm finished updating, and will resume my journal by paper and pen...

It's amazing how one small pill can completely make your life seem just a little off. Once you've been that goddamn happy, nothing else really compares.

A couple days ago I had a kidney stone incident. It kinda puts things in to perspective. Like how dependant we really are on eachother. I mean what would i have done if no one would have been able to take me to the doctor? I was so scared. I have never had pain like that, I was crazed, twisting and moaning, cold sweat dripped from my forehead, ( Read more... )

Summer's over, fall has set in, septemeber has risen and left me with a sunkissed summer to remember. Cheap sex, cheap liquor, cheap gods, cheap dreams, and drunken stupor. Its all a slowly fading buzz. I never got a tan this summer. I was never awake when the sun was out. I remember dancing drunk, spinning, kissing, touching, laughing, smiling, ( Read more... )

I keep having this dream over and over. It varies a little each night, but here's what usually happens..I'm running in a feild of flowers I'm runing really fast, barefoot, jsut to run, I'm not being chased or anything. So I come to the edge of cliff and I jump off in to this green ocean. The water is all around me, and a group of purple dolphins ( Read more... )

So..here we approach the subject of the horses, which I have neglected, refused to think about, and am highly tramatized by...
So my beautiful girls, Nadia and Nadira... Nadia is my love, she is a captured bit of wild beauty, a calm and divine spirit, who encompasses grace and compassion. I love her more each time I rest my head against hers, ( Read more... )

It's weird how life balances itself out. You have good days, and bad days, horrible months, and great months, I for one, love to acknowledge the good, because too often we focus on the bad, and are constantly "pissy" about something, why not jsut relish the good moments? Right now I am 18. I am in-love with my youth and vitality. I do the things ( Read more... )

So, things have really been going better. I'v been working, which is always a good thing, I got my cellphone back, which is AWESOOMMEE, because i'm obsessed with it lol. Donte is still awesome... Me and Jesse are talking, things feel kinda uncomfortable still, but time will iron out our differences. Donte got me a Rilo Kiley CD too. I have looked ( Read more... )

It's weird. I didn't really think I had a "problem" up till today. I want to drnk so badly. I have gone weeks without drinking, it wasn't a problem, but knwoing I CAN'T drink, drives me crazy. Its always on my mind.I could really relate to alot the people at AA were saying. The desolation that eats at you, the emptiness that makes you want to use, ( Read more... )

You are a No Drama Mama!

No need for drama, you just chill out and don't let things bother you

You've got a peaceful, zen-like attitude... even when things get crazy

You're a pleasure to be around, and you have lots of friends to show for it

You don't need to be the center of attention, you're happy enough as is!


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