wow its been forever. not that anyone cares since no one reads this but thats ok cuz i have my website back up. STIL.net. thanks

skipped bio today. which was very stupid of me since our midterm test is in one week. sheesh i am horrible. a little upset too. i was going to try out for a solo today in choir but realized that i wasnt prepared for it like i should be. i was going to practice for it with my friend yesterday but she never showed up. she said she was there but... ( Read more... )

my friend just got all moved into her new apartment 4 states away. makes me kinda jealous. i mean shes all growing up and moving away and i can barely live 1 hour away from my family. its that hard for me. i'd like to make my own life all on my own....well with neil...but i dont think i can. not now anyway but now or soon is when i want it. stupid ( Read more... )

so i seriously need a puppy! to make me happier ya know? cuz i havent been for a long time now. my parents even called my sunday night cuz they were worried about me. well, thats another story but yes, i need one of these.

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7 things I plan to do before I die:

1. own horses

2. meet ayumi hamasaki

3. have 3-4 children

4. own a boat

5. go to japan

6. be a wonderful mother

7. be a wonderful wife

7 things I can do:

1. sing opera

2. play the piano

3. speak japanese and german

4. webdesign

5. shop without money

6. draw manga

7. forgive

7 things I cannot do:
1. fit into a ( Read more... )

i just remembered what someone said to me when i annouced that neil and i *might* get married. we're just talking about it anyway. but yeah...so this so called friend....not anymore but thats another story...says to me "are you sure you two are strong enough. i think he deserves to have a true relationship...are you sure you can give that to him? ( Read more... )

la ti da! i am home. but friday i will be gone again. this weekend was something else. not really. but fun none the less. ( Read more... )

neil is mad at me cuz i wont have sex with him. i mean... we use to all the time and for some reason i dont want to anymore. is that weird. my mom says it is. funny how i can talk to my mom about anything. but thats another story. so after lunch he came up to my room so i could show him something i made on my Psp. well he locked the door and was ( Read more... )

yesterday while shopping for food at walmart i found these awesome sunglasses. love them. everyone else around here has them, why not me? well, neil doesnt like them. mainly because "they look like bug eyes". oh well. he'll get use to them. picked up a job application for the hospital pharmacy too. i hope i get that job. i have been working at my ( Read more... )

well im here at college again. saturday was my lil brothers band comp. went well. we got 3rd overall...which was jacked. i mean i'm willing to admit when our band sucks and this wasnt one of those nights. oh well. more comps to go to. they will win those....hopefully. today my mother and i went to get the stud for our doggy Siddalee. Shorty (the ( Read more... )