my mom and i take the long way to the florida hospital cancer institute. lately, as i gaze out of my window, i imagine am a volunteer trash collector, riding my bike and spearing discarded soda cans into my bag. when we arrive, we park and sometimes my mom gets me a wheelchair from inside and sometimes i use my walker ( Read more... )

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yeah, its sad. all the things i wont get to do. places i'll never see, books i'll never read. but what are you gonna do? maybe people will wonder and they'll ask. and it can be said, she's not the girl you thought she was. turn the tables on all of you and have you know that that shy quiet girl writing in the corner is fucking SICK and there ain't ( Read more... )

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so i did not call in. i called melissia at like 11 or so last night, let the phone ring once, hung up, and then turned off the phone. i got a message from her asking what's up. this morning, she called at about quarter to 8, asking where i was. i turned off my phone. when i turned it back on during the golden girls, i had a message from tracy, ( Read more... )

i am not even going to call in to work. i just won't show up. and then friday, when i do show up, will just act as though nothing as happened. i'll just sort of shrug my shoulders. eh, what can ya do? and since i am so fucking responsible all the time, everyone will be concerned and concentrate on whatever awful things must be going on for me at ( Read more... )

i called in to work today. i want to call in again tomorrow. i'm hoping melissia will call me and ask if i'm going to come in, something she has done in the past when i called in the previous day. and i will say no, im not coming in, cough cough. and then i will only have to work 3 days this week. that takes care of this week. but what about next ( Read more... )

our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. it is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. your playing small does not serve the world. there is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. we are all meant to shine as children do. ( Read more... )

night before last, i saw annuals and the dears.


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as i went to the kitchen a minute ago to get some captain cruch, i noticed a walgreen's receipt from earlier today on the counter. my mom went to get robotussin [she has a horrible cold]. written on the receipt?

Hello, my name is Khannabys. Thank you for allowing me to serve you today.