i just looked through my old posts. again. i feel so weird looking back at my life. it makes me miss it. a lot. if i could back to those days i would. in a heartbeat. even with the depression and the cutting.. it'd be worth it. i would change so much in my life. i would have actually gotten to take that music scholarship. i might be even be famous ( Read more... )

i drank the kool-aid and started a blog.

http://mommatoe.blogspot.com/

im sitting in my kitchen, reading through old posts, and sobbing.

my leo is gone. i cant find him, because he doesnt wish me to.

i am sitting on the floor of my sister and mother’s home typing this up while jessica straightens my hair and my sister laughs at my nappy hair. oh yeah. i got nappy hair.

im feeling kinda crappy today, though im putting up the front that im in a good mood. im just feeling horrible because of this boy thing i got going on. he’s coming down this ( Read more... )

good evening. i have been off of work for almost one whole hour and my feet still sting like they are being prodded with needles. gotta love the convenience clerk job. but hey, it pays the bills. literally. so i have a pretty large update to do right now. yes yes yes ( Read more... )

so anyway, its been another like almost three months since i wrote. and a lot has happened.

my dad didnt just get upset when i told him about the scholarship. he went fucking crazy. i still hate him for that. and then trent dumped me two weeks later. oh yes. yes he did. but i do understand why he did it. we spent so much freaking time together that ( Read more... )

 so this christmas hasnt been THAT bad. i mean, nana's sucked because everyone kept informing me that my son wasnt fat enough for them, even though his doctors say he's just fine and dandy. and speaking of that wonderful baby, he had a fever of 102.8 friday night. woowee. that was interesting.

but here is the important info. i made three b's, one c ( Read more... )

I've been nonchalant about the calls at 2 AM.
But do you really think that I would believe it was just your mother again?

so everything is pretty normal today. trent and i had another big, deep talk about where we are going and all this bs. and i confessed that i didnt know if i really loved him or if i just didn't want to be alone. haven't confessed ( Read more... )

so anyway. this is my first post in about over a year i believe. and the only reason im posting is because i still have like almost two hours before my evening class starts and the cyber center is empty. life is good. quite good, actually.

i have a son now. he's five months old and his name is tobin. i love him so much. and my other baby is named ( Read more... )

( to all my psycho ex-lj friends. )