I feel so...rejected. Heartbroken, rather. Maybe even a bit fed up. And I'm almost positive I'll have a mid-life crisis before I hit twenty. That gives me a little more than a year. What to do...what to do...

I'M BACK! And for good this time.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/intheabsenceof/ is going to be my new livejournal. loverofsadness is no more. change is good.

I'll be seeing you then...

im beginning to think that im not the one who should be on medication.

i feel like everything is moving too fast, as if the world has suddenly broke from it's axis and is drifting out into the unknown. i feel like im running to catch up to yesterday. i feel like i've missed the last bus out of here and now i am alone to suffer the consequences of some faulty action undisplaced to me. i suppose i'll always have tuesday ( Read more... )

i cut my hair last night. out of pure lunacy and boredom. and i like it. i also brought out the metal box from under my bed that kept all my fond memories from a about a year ago, and i ripped what was not burned and threw it all away. every last shred of paper lined with endangered flowers until it was all gone. i threw my curling iron in it and ( Read more... )

It's kind of amusing, yet at the same time it's not at all. I see everyone around me moving on and living their own life, and then I take a step forward into my own to realize that I am at the same place I was a year ago. And it bother's me to the point of suffocation. And not just a few people I know or anything, it's everyone around, everyone ( Read more... )

so. im thinking about my powerpoint presentation on chlamydia and this don henley song im downloading because it reminds me of mister brown and i like mister brown an aweful lot.[?]sometimes he seems real lonely though. i wish i could find him a lady friend. i think that would make him feel better. or maybe it wouldnt. who knows. he's getting old. ( Read more... )

I lied still on the bed, disconnected from outside and inside and everything else that didn't make sense. He slid his hands around my face and down my neck to my open flesh. And he crept into my dark places. And he made me feel good. And he was someone in the right place at the right time.[he never took off his gloves.]I got up after a while to ( Read more... )

"So what do you plan on doing after high school?" was somehow the way she put it ( Read more... )