so lately things have been good and then i call my mom from my dads house and she tells me that clarence beat her up i told her to leave him and i dont think she will if she dont iam just going to stay here and prolly not ever come back to wellington or fort collins i hate that part of colorado i wish my step dad would fucking die. he dont need to ( Read more... )

oh no iam so sad, everyone hates me boo hoo. im going to lock myself in my room and never come out because i dont have anyfriends. poor me!!! haha whatever i sm so scared. if your going to talk shit come say it to my face. instead of being childish and putting it in your journal. becuase your words hurt me so much. geesh what ever am i going to do ( Read more... )

so i met a guy named ryan he lives by the mall. and he wants me to teach him how to dress like a girl but hes not gay he just want to look like a girl he said he wants to become my girlfriend ..lol..he said he will do anything i say i asked him if i told him to suck some guys cock he said he would to bad there wasnt any cock around for him to suck ( Read more... )

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so i am at my grandmas in denver which i s always fun.. my brotjer and i were drinking and talkingh and he put things to were i cn undetsand ,,,look everyone iam sorry thta im fucked up . i cant helop it but i love you guys abnd i dont want me to edn thinghs fp0r stuoid reasons ...i ll stopd .. okay ..i know it sounds pathietic but yiou klnow ( Read more... )

Meaning is sometimes hard to spot It begins with the flickering of cigarettes In the darkness of a dorm room Somewhere in the suffocated mid-west But if this is real then I was mistaken And if there is truth then why can't we find it? But beauty comes to those who have been waiting For something that is bigger than themselves But this is the sound ( Read more... )

so anymore when i call someone no one answers. its cool that i am getting ditched. and thanks stephaine for saying that you are going to call and you dont and when i call you, you dont answer. so i guess its ditch melissa day. its fucking bullshit. i am so sick of this shit this is the second time it has happened but whatever. i guess i am just not ( Read more... )

im so fucking close to throwing my comp out the window. i almost had my journal they way i wanted then my comp froze. yeah im giving up for awhile.i have the hottest background image but my transparentcy wont work so its hard to see . fucking journal. i hate you.

i wanna run away..haha. just for something new to do. everything is just so boring. i hate this time of the year its just so depressing. i am so close to dropping out and just go to collage. i cant handle school. i dont like talking to people. and as far as i can tell they dont like to talk to me as well. i wish things were like they were last year ( Read more... )

i fucking hate my life. i wish i were dead. im just going to crul up in a ball, and never talk to anyone again. im going to become invisable, because thats how i feel. its good to know everyone else has a life and friends, and im not apart of it.