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Argh. Upset. Bleh.
Not sure why I really expected guys to understand.. I just wish they did sometimes. My fella told me today that he asked a female coworker to go on a "platonic" outing and it just... it really bends me out of shape. I mean I really want to fully trust him but there is just something niggling at me in a "what if" manner. I know ( Read more... ) -
It all comes full circle
I know, I know... i only come here to bitch. And it's true, this place for me is like a quiet, padded room where I can scream and yell all I want so I don't have to take it out on anyone else. It's my buffer zone so I don't end up saying something I will inevitably regret. So let's begin. It came to my attention recently that I was the subject of a ( Read more... ) -
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So. I met this guy last month and... he's really nice to me. His name is Jon and like, I can't really believe that it's been a month already... it feels like we just met but at the same time feels like i've known him forever. I'm scared. I don't want to feel this way... I'm still bitter over jerkface. I wouldn't say life is getting easier but I am ( Read more... ) -
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I did this awhile ago and was bored so here it is again ( Read more... ) -
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Sure i could say i'm doing well... but that would be a lie. I've barely left my house in three months... I just don't want to see and/or talk to anyone. My favorite place in Florida is tainted for me and the one time I went there since this happened, I ended up feeling ill just being there. Knowing I was so close but so far away. And now I can't ( Read more... ) -
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Well it's officially over. He's gone and I'm left here trying to pick up the pieces. He was such a jerk about it too. He still has some of my stuff but I'm thinking about just letting him keep it all. I can't think about going back over there, my heart breaks every time I do. I still love him... probably will always be in love with him. The thought ( Read more... ) -
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I might be starting Japanese lessons soon. MADE OF WIN. -
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I am sad to say that after 8 months, my parents have decided to close the Smoothie Factor. I'm really kind of upset by this but que sera sera I guess, it must not have been meant to be :(. I'll be there today or tomorrow helping close it down. -
Overwhelming Joy
I'm not really sure where to start, its just this splendid sensation, a stampede of thoughts i cant seem to articulate. Well, without squeaking or sighing a dreadful lot. I am so tired, things seem just so.. so right. I don't know how to explain it, but i cant seem to erase the smile from my face, even as i feel my heart is breaking with need, i ( Read more... ) -
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I was sitting on the phone with Chris last night and I started to cry. I didn't make a conscious attempt or anything, it just started pouring down my cheek. I realized it was because I was talking to someone who's known me less than a year and yet he loved me more than any other person i'd met including my family. I miss him and I can't hug him ( Read more... )