a man stands on the shores of a sea of red. the red stretches as far as the man can see, dwarfing him and overwhelming him with a sense of dread. is this a sea of love, a sea of hatred or, worst of all, a sea of blood? the blood of another life ruined at his hands. terror grips his heart and soul at the thought of this person, and as he realizes ( Read more... )

so yeah, there is a new romantic interest, all is well and good, its just flirting right now, but who knows where it will go, i'm happy with just the flirting for now, but we're going along. its about time, its actually really helped me take my mind off my ex and helped me to move on from that whole thing. work is just work, but since sammy is ( Read more... )

possibly a new girl on the radar, knowing you guys, let the chomo/ryan bashing begin

42 days! i'm actually looking forward to this trip more than anything else at all right now, literally, so it better be a good one god damnit! in other news, Ryan's got a serious girl problem, a conundrum is probably a better word. i seem to have made a soft spot in me heart that i probably shouldnt be having any spots in my heart, but well, if you ( Read more... )

an extremely bad day coupled with having to manage (well lets call it what it really is, babysit!) a bunch of useless, moronic teenagers at work, or "the place where i go to get paid for doing nothing" as they should be calling it, makes ryan too tired to post in his livejournal, maybe tomorrow i'll post a full update as to the goings on in my life ( Read more... )

havent been on in a while, guess working 50+ hrs a week will do that. more to come, update: still in a heartbroke state of self-hatred.

i hate myself, most of my life is comlpetely content. i have a great job, which i'm "climbing the ladder" so to speak, another side business thats really starting to take off and i'm not doing bad financially, i have a decent amount of really good friends. and yet, despite all this, the one thing that i want, no, i must get out of my mind i cant. i ( Read more... )

this post is to emily, after a (and i actually checked the time in the call log) 2hrs 57min and 21sec i have come to the conclusion that i am in fact not god, we had a really good, mutually beneficial conversation covering a huge range of things, emily i'm so greatful to have a friend like you, i'm greatful for all my friends really, especially you ( Read more... )

so i officially bought my plane tickets today! hooray for that. i will be landing at John Wayne airport on feb. 3rd at 12:45pm. that means that rucker and heather better be there for a little bit at least, because if i dont see you i'm gonna shit a brick, and then mail it to you, and no one likes a stinky shit covered brick being sent via post! but ( Read more... )

All credit goes to Zach on this one, you have out done yourself man ( Read more... )