have you ever loved someone so much you hated them for it ( Read more... )

if only i could get up the guts to say this to her, or should i even ( Read more... )

i hate this, i've fallen in love with her, and i know she doesnt feel the same way, we're really close, i can talk to her about anything, she's the only perosn i can actually talk to and i cant talk about this, the one thing i really need to talk about, this really seems like an incoherent rambling, i just cant put it into words, i dont want to ( Read more... )

isnt there just a thin line between love and hate, is it possible to love someone and hate them at the same time, i think its not that i hate her, i think its that i hate myself for loving her, for loving someone in a way that doesnt reciprocate. i know she loves me, i also, unfortunately, know that she doesnt love me in the same way i love her, ( Read more... )

well, its been so long since i've posted, mainly because nothing big has happened. work, poker, and sitting around the house is all that i do, and i only do poker once a week so lifes not all too exciting but anyhow, yeah, thats about it.

well i'm back from LA, it was a fun time, saw some friends, missed some others, but either way, i had a good time. visited most of the places i wanted. it was fun, as you can see, i'm not too talkative now, maybe i'll write more later.

well, i'm better off now, Leesa and I both agree that I need to start going to sandpoint more often, maybe i can strike up something with liz, who knows. but yeah, i'm doing good, working, and barely able to contain myself, one week, ONE WEEK!!! i'm so effing excited!!!! but yeah. the love life needs a little boost, but other than that i'm doing ( Read more... )

what i need, HA! if there were enough paper in this world to compose my needs on we'd be deforested. i'm ranting because, well i dont know why. i was at work all day, and at work i get to put on a happy face. get to put on my best show, my best act. i'm a star, on my own fucking pathetic stage. i'm just tired of unhappiness, but then again, arent ( Read more... )

lonliness is the mother of all bad decisions

the sea of blood fades to a mere puddle behind the man, deciding that this sea had too many hardships, and a definate chance of drowning, the man has moved on. growth? fear of being burned? or an utterly despairing act of giving up on life? only the man can no, only the man can find out. what lies ahead on this path? what seas will present ( Read more... )