its a new day ( Read more... )

i'm honestly surprised at how quickly i'm getting over this whole thing, its easier than i thought it would be, maybe talking to her often and staying friends with her is helping even though i didnt think it would, possibly its just masking my feelings of hurt and i'm taking that mask to mean that i'm moving on when i'm not, i'm not sure but either ( Read more... )

well yesterday was a little weird, me and sausha made up, were not mad at each other anymore so we talked and then we both went to work. thats not the weird thing, the weird thing is that she called and texted me several times while at work and we talked for a little while afterwards. it was weird to go from being pissed at her and her being pissed ( Read more... )

i didnt get a new cell phone but i did change my number to a local number here in idaho. its 208-569-8053. not much else going on, healing process is starting to take place, unadulterated hatred really helps it.

i'm so pissed right now, and incredibly sad, she got the charger today and guess the fuck what, she's already got a new boyfriend, anyone want to drive to wyoming and kick her ass for me??? i'm so pissed.

i sent the phone charger a few days ago, it should get there tomorrow sometime. i'm so bored and broke, money wise that is. but life goes on, no matter what i say, life goes on no matter what i do. good song, one of the few he wrote, but yeah. i wrote a nice little letter and burnt a song onto a CD and sent it with the charger. the song was Far ( Read more... )

i can finally talk about it without using song lyrics, i honestly dont think i've ever known such pain. i know it was only 4 months, but it was the longest relationship i've ever had. and we were really in love. i thought i'd loved before this, but now i realize that i never had before her ( Read more... )

This time, This place ( Read more... )

I hear a voice say, "Don't be so blind ( Read more... )

i'm back in idaho, long story short, we broke up, if you want the longer version, call me or wait until i get over it enough to post it.