Did I ever cross your mind? Did you even think of me, think of the possibilty? guess not, or I wouldn't be trying to figure out why i was gonna give you the best I could possibly be. Why I wanted to care, why, I even said hello! It just brings us to this sad finale. Welcome to the end of what we never had and the lost memories we could have made. ( Read more... )

Just got home from the play. wow so many people were there. lol. It was good, even though i've had streetcar on the brain (cuz we read it, then watched the movie, lol yes i must express appreciation for Marlon Brando's hot body) for like 2 weeks and was a bit sick of it. Soccer practice and our team dinner was canceled because of the storms so i ( Read more... )

:-D. Whoa am I happy? yeah I am ( Read more... )

I wish the rain could wash away my facade
let the lonely little girl show through
i'm so sick of pretending to be strong
so tired of faking it for you

Just let me be me
Let me be special.

Soccer breakfast @ Einsteins this mornings. Yum blackberry lemonade, need i say more? Yep then our game vs DCD. we lost 2-0, which is amazing. I thought for sure they were going to mercy us. But yeah. Monday i'm going to ask Chad to move me down. I can't take this anymore. I want to have fun. And i'm not. and regardless of what everyone says, i'm ( Read more... )

Just got home from Somerset with Stephanie. California pizza kitchen(sketchy guy, lol we could have gotten wine Abercrombie guy, lickable makeup, coach bags, tiffanys (its only $285 lol), you calling random persons, free food at haagen daaz( cuz my cuz is awesome) and of course our dinner convo. So much fun. :-D ( Read more... )

Game vs Ligget today. Huge game. Wanna bet i won't be playing? yeah. Oh well. I hope we dont get rain delays. i'll cry. i have to go home and watch FRIENDS lol and test drive mommy's mother day present with dad. and i cant be late. heh heh. DCD is saturday. We need to beat that team!!! Picnic afterwards. ugh. WHY ( Read more... )

I opened my email today and i got this ( Read more... )

Stole this off katie. DO IT ( Read more... )

I know I cant be perfect. I know how far away i am from it, but i need to be. Maybe if I was a good daughter, maybe they wouldnt fight, maybe i wouldnt wake up to hear my father yelling in a drunken rage and i wouldnt dread coming home. Maybe i wouldn't have to cry, maybe i wouldnt be falling apart. I wouldnt have to know my weaknessess. I dont ( Read more... )