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So I've had pretty messed up dreams for as long as I can remember and it doesn't seem to be getting any better ( Read more... ) -
Swoon
I know this sounds retarded but I'm slightly miffed right now. I haven't been on my antidepressants for 4 days now cuz I don't wanna be on pills my whole life. So it's been kinda weird to feel emotions right now cuz they aren't fake or man made. Well long story short me and Stephen were broken up for a while and it was after he said he had ( Read more... ) -
Sometimes
Sometimes it seems like it'd be so much easier to just give it all up and end it all just so I'd never have to face another difficult decision in my life and hurt another person as badly as I've been hurt. Sometimes it just seems easier. -
*Dying*
I'm sick with some sort of stomach flu and it's ripping me apart. I'm so sick of being sick already. I have enough stuff to deal with ( Read more... ) -
Nightmares
I have nightmares almost every single night and I mean the type that are so vivid and sometimes disturbing that I wake up and I feel sad most of the day because the image haunts me. I've been having a few weird ones lately that have been a little more clear then usual so it's not hard to figure out where they came from. However, in my real life I ( Read more... ) -
Nothing in life is perfect
So I can always believe things are perfect but the truth is they never really are. The truth of the matter is I still have a temper. I still have my insecurities. I still have my uncertainties about the future. I don't know why but it seems to me that I sabotage all of my relationships. I end up worrying about all the bad things that could ( Read more... ) -
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You ever feel like you just can't win? Like someone asks you to give them space and then gets depressed when you're not around. Like when you give someone your best and they're afraid you'll change even though you are completely yourself. You're supposed to trust and take risks. Well my friend made me a mixed cd of songs he listens to when he's ( Read more... ) -
my love...
Dear Stephen ( Read more... ) -
Swing Life Away
So the past couple days I've had an awful head cold from hell. There's nothing I like to do more then eat when I'm sick. The biggest problem with that is that when I'm sick I also don't exercise so let's look at the combination shall we? Food plus no exercise plus depression equals a stuck state of mind that I'm a fat cow that will never be the ( Read more... )