oh...the pictures....they disturb me so...

why can't I let it go? why do I keep thinking about it? it's just too much. I truly didn't need a visual

my aunt donna died..

So, I feel a little disgusted right now. I mean, I feel a lot better today than I did yesterday. I just can't believe that Steve said I was dead to him. It just makes me feel stupid that I wasted any amount of time on him. Where is the loyalty? What ever happened to expressing your feelings and working things out? In the end it doesn't matter much ( Read more... )

I wish I could explain the way I feel right now. Even now...alone in my room, just with my thoughts...I don't have a clear mind. I feel so uncomfortable right now...just with life in general. Uncomfortable is the perfect word. My life feels a little bit like a mess...and I don't want to be dramatic about anything right now...I don't want this to be ( Read more... )

"My only weakness is you
 Only reason is you
 Every minute with you I feel like I can do
 Anything..."

"I know the distance is a factor,
but I stretch as often as I can.
My goal is to reach your hands any day now...

Please don't blame me for trying,
to fix this one last time.
I have a hard time as it is..

Because I miss you love,
I miss you love.

Don't act like you don't know me
It's still me, I never changed
I'll be here when you come back

And I miss you love ( Read more... )

I'm so tired of being sick. I just want to feel better. But it seems like no matter how much I lay around and try to just relax, I feel just as shitty the next day when I wake up. I feel stressed out anyway. I just need a job and I'm getting frystrated that no one is calling me back. I know that everything will work itself out and that when the ( Read more... )

I can understand the feeling of not wanting to hurt other people. I don't believe it is natural to WANT to hurt others..maybe for a sick few...but not for most. The problem seems to be, that if you try really hard to not hurt people, you always hurt someone along the way. If you spend so much time protecting a certain person, it is quite possible ( Read more... )

Just want to get some of it out....

Saw Magda Last Thursday night. Spent the weekend down there. It was a good weekend. I felt so much better when it was over with. Before I saw her, I felt like I was suffocating here...like I would just die..even though that sounds pretty severe. I wanted things to be perfect right away....they can't be like that I ( Read more... )

she arrived today....

finally