This is the last LJ entry from lovexandxdeath. I've surpassed the bullshit in my life and I need to erase certain people from my life completely. I have a new LJ, and a new screen name. All you have to do if you care to know them is leave me a comment here and I'll give you both.

It's time to fucking step up.

Fuck love, and fuck you.

Check out our new website we had designed for us...

http://www.nothurametal.com

Read the sweet bio I wrote while drunk at 4am, hahaha.

Awesomeness.

I wish you would appreciate the stuff I do, and not take me for granted. I've been sitting here for 2 weeks waiting for just a sign of appreciation. Call me a baby, tell me I complain too much, tell me I try to cause problems. I expect it. Any time I complain, I'm accused of complaining too much. I wouldn't complain if I had nothing to complain ( Read more... )

Forget it.

I just want you to know something ( Read more... )

i lost my fear of falling.

I'm leaving for work.
Woooooooooooooooooooooooo.

Hopefully I'll find something interesting to do.

By the way, we have a show June 10th. I'll post details soon. It's about time.

I like work a lot more when I think about what I'm working for.

I can't wait for it.

Can you?

I'm discontent with the things I do, and I can't change them for the life of me. I try to hard to be the perfect person for you but I can't, and I'm not blaming that on you, even though I usually do. I want so bad to say "it's over", so I can free you from my bullshit, but I'm more selfish than that. My hands are at a constant tremble, my eyes are ( Read more... )

I'm reaching my breaking point. I am losing all comfort with all of my surroundings. I don't know where I am anymore. I need to find that special place I call home. Not in it's literal sense, but in a metaphoric sense.

I've got a long way to go, but I'm getting further away.

I don't think I've ever been this unhappy with life. I don't think I've ever been this unhappy with myself. The worst part about it is that I have no one to talk to about it. I can't stand feeling like this, it's the worst thing in the world. I'm going over the edge, I can feel it. It's just a matter of time. I can't take this much longer ( Read more... )