I think I hurt one of my closest freinds' feeling yesterday. He admitted to me that he's liked me on and off for years now. And that he had a dream we kissed. And I didn't give him the reaction he expected. Knowing he has feelings for me makes me feel uncomfortable. I don't want to face him at school. But I know I can't ignore him.
people scare me. because i'll let them down. somehow. i'll manage. i always do. whether they know it or not. i'm paranoid. i swear i am. every day i freak out or overreact to something so small everyone else failed to notice it. it makes me sad. i have nightmares every night now. last night i killed a man. it was awful. but it was self defense. in my dream last night i also almost saw a seven year old girl die. die. for no reason at all. but i couldnt help her. it was sick. so sick. i'm scared. so scared. i hardly ate anything yesterday. and i have yet to eat anything today. it's four thirty. but i'm not hungry at all. but it's okay. so far no one's noticed.
i laughed so hard it hurt last night. i laughed so hard i cried. i laughed so hard that in that moment i didn't care about him. or him, or him, or that fact that i've been alone for 3 months.. i think it's been three months. i lost count. i laughed so hard i was happy. i was happy. laughter was all i needed. my friends were all i needed.
that was one of the most beautiful moments of my life.
i made out with my best friend last night i was drunk, she was drunk we're both girls i am very straight and have no feelings for her; it just felt good and i was completely inebriated she was the same but she is bi and i am scared of that because i dont want her to like me like that soudns homophobic; it could be but it is what it is i'm trying to forget
i hooked up with this idiot three times since i've been single. it was a while ago, but it still bothers me. it's so not like me, but i was so sexually frusrated, i couldn't help myself.
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I think I hurt one of my closest freinds' feeling yesterday.
He admitted to me that he's liked me on and off for years now.
And that he had a dream we kissed.
And I didn't give him the reaction he expected.
Knowing he has feelings for me makes me feel uncomfortable.
I don't want to face him at school.
But I know I can't ignore him.
I don't know what to do :/
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i'm scared.
so scared.
i hardly ate anything yesterday. and i have yet to eat anything today. it's four thirty. but i'm not hungry at all. but it's okay. so far no one's noticed.
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i laughed so hard i cried.
i laughed so hard that in that moment i didn't care about him.
or him, or him, or that fact that i've been alone for 3 months.. i think it's been three months. i lost count.
i laughed so hard i was happy. i was happy. laughter was all i needed. my friends were all i needed.
that was one of the most beautiful moments of my life.
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i was drunk, she was drunk
we're both girls
i am very straight and have no feelings for her; it just felt good and i was completely inebriated
she was the same but she is bi
and i am scared of that because i dont want her to like me like that
soudns homophobic; it could be
but it is what it is
i'm trying to forget
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it was a while ago, but it still bothers me.
it's so not like me, but i was so sexually frusrated, i couldn't help myself.
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