And so it begins, another summer of livejournal. For those who know me (or this journal) you know its not a positive reason why I am updating. It means that my cyclical depression has returned. You know, that depression that only seems to hit me every other summer right around this time. Its been happening for years, even as a child. I never knew ( Read more... )

A finer figment of the female form ( Read more... )

...But i can't wait for sunday morning. Last night was a dream. If this morning never came i would have died at heaven's gate.

Last night, I saw a fox for the first time in a long while.

Damnit!! I need it! I don't want it. I don't desire it. I fucking need it. And its not here and i don't have it. There's only one person, i know, that had it at one time, but they don't have it anymore, and if they did, they probably wouldn't share it with me. I am nothing but by myself without it, but i don't feel like myself unless i have it. And ( Read more... )

I don't like the fact that i feel compelled to write in this thing. But really i just don't like thinking and feeling the way i do. With so much turmoil and excitement in my life, as i stand at the threshold of a beautiful new future full of uncertainties and possibilities, maybe i crave something concrete. Maybe i just need to know that tomorrow ( Read more... )

one may think it sacrilege to say, "i feel like Jesus"...but in a perfect world we would all strive to be like Him and one day achieve it. Today i say that i feel like Jesus. I am willingly giving up my body (ie emotions/animal nature) for the greater good, or Love. Puting love before all else. pain, suffering, etc. I am either the biggest ( Read more... )

I guess its only fitting that i should post a journal entry given the immense emotional turmoil i have been through lately....this journal has always been a testament to my instability and we will continue in that vein. I could say a million and one horrible things about what you did to me, but the underlying theme here is love. The truth is i will ( Read more... )

the thought of you, as i drift asleep, is my key to a world where the fire of our passion melts away every inhibition and the morning light is all that separates my lips from yours.

"Virginity"

Lay me down into our wedding bed,
As if it were glass,
though it feel like feathers.

Rescue me from my robe,
As though it were ablaze
With the same fire that burns indside me.

Deliver unto me my viginity,
As you would deliver a baby to its crib.

And thrust upon me my womanhood
As ferociously as that baby
Drew its first breath.