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Today has been a bad day..I hate today, I barely talked to Ashely today...Even though I went out to lunch with her and She came over..She barely said a word to me today...I'm not even kidding...TODAY SUCKED!!!! She's seemed change now that we are going out...I figured she's be really happy now that we are back together...she seemed to be into me ( Read more... )

I just read Matt Hoards journal and I think he's trying make Ashley fall for him again, I don't think its working, I hope its not..The stuff that he says..." I said Ashley H was great because she actually is great...shes the nicest girl ever...she would have never done anything to hurt me and i guess once again i was blinded by my love for Ashley S ( Read more... )

Remind to not go up there to eat lunch with her or to see her, I don't know...I walked up there and I really didn't think I'd make it before noon but I did and When see seen me, there was like nothing, she didn't seem excited or anything, she didn't hug me, kiss me or nothing...I don't know, man...I felt like out of place, like I didn't belong ( Read more... )

I slept a full nights sleep last night...I layed down before 11, and slept through the entire night..Untill about 9:15..I had set my alarm for 7:45, so I could get up and eat and stuff before I walked up to marching band...but I didn't hear it untill 9:15, so I may go up there at lunch to have lunch with Ashley or something...I want to see her ( Read more... )

Today turned out alright...I walked to Band Camp and talked to Ashley and she told me that she thought about it and she doesn't like matt..It was one of those moment things...You know, where you see them and all of those happy times and your reminded of feelings...I believe her..Because I know how it feels...She was supposed to come over today ( Read more... )

I'm an update machine...The more I think about what has happened...The less it makes sense..I shit you not...Its crazy ( Read more... )

Man, I came out of my room this morning after my mom left for work..She doesn't know yet about Ashley, I'll call her later on today and talk to her about it anyway..I come out here and I turn on my computer and it all loads up and I was hoping that last night didn't happen..I really did..I didn't even sleep..I layed in my bed looking at the ( Read more... )

I just read her journal again...I never realized she said that"ALL" of the feelings for him came back...If this is true, I'm done, I really am, All of this happened at once, it wasn't like she was like "i'm starting to like matt again" it was "I seen Matt today and All of those old feelings rushed back"...That sucks, I'm so not fine...I've been ( Read more... )

God...This sucks, This really really really sucks...GOD!!!! Everything Is SO fucked..It really is..She may say that she still likes me alot and that but she's gonna start liking matt more and then some more and then once again, I'm out of the picture...I know wh6 it hurts soo much..It felt like we were going out, you know...We were soo close..I'm ( Read more... )