Honestly, I quit grad school because it was making me feel the same way you do. I was getting depressed and felt completely worthless and awful every day. I only forced myself out of bed to go to class because I felt like I had to for my advisors, and I did my homework as obligation, not to actually learn. I even took classes I didn't care anything about, and everything was just so boring and I didn't care at all
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I felt that way for a good long while, really. I never tried, but I definitely thought a few times "What if I just drive off this bridge? I could do it." I've felt like a burden for a good chunk of my life and am just now really getting into believing in myself and feeling like I actually have a purpose. My daughter helps that a lot.
School, especially the way academics is set up now here, is just so absolutely draining. I'm surprised more people don't just crack under the pressure, especially given Masters and Ph.D programs. :(
Hang in there, girl. :) We do very much so want you to hang around for quite a long time. :)
I didn't know you were feeling this way, but I'm sorry to hear it. :( Getting happy can seem like such a struggle sometimes, but I'm glad you're going to counseling. One step at a time. ♥
I'm so sorry that you're as unhappy as you are. I really hope after this semester things start to lighten up at last a little bit. If you ever need someone to talk to, my metaphorical door is always open, and my thoughts are with you. ♥
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There's nothing I can say to keep you going other than that. You're not alone, not ever.
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School, especially the way academics is set up now here, is just so absolutely draining. I'm surprised more people don't just crack under the pressure, especially given Masters and Ph.D programs. :(
Hang in there, girl. :) We do very much so want you to hang around for quite a long time. :)
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