This journal will be about Chris and my interaction as he pretty much broke up with me but we're living together until we break our lease after the first of the year. This means I have that amount of time to win his heart back. I don't know how but I'll try anything. I know I should just let him go find himself as he claims he so desperately thinks he needs to do.
Love is fucked. It's one of those things that ebbs and flows and no one seems to know that that is it's nature. It bites you when you least expect it and when it's gone there's nothing to be done. The best I can offer is some sort of knowing wink and a promise that it will get better. As far as YOU are concerned though...don't be so concerned with him and you. Focus on you. Then he'll wonder why YOU'RE so distant and withdrawn. Go on a weekend trip. Doesn't matter where. There's a La Quinta inn in Coeur d'Alene that has jacuzzi suites. Heart shaped hot tubs. I never felt closer to my girl than I did when we were there.
Is there a reason for this insanity on his behalf? Is there a reason for yours?
What if he doesn't want to go anywhere with me? He said he wasn't attracted to me right now with everything that is going on. And then I wonder what is wrong with me?
without knowing what's going on... I really couldn't tell you much. But do your thing. It is how it should be. If it was supposed to be any different it would be.
I became sick. Diagnosed with Endometreousis. Had surgery. Out of work for two weeks. Follow up appointment: I was told I had 1-3 years to conceive I told Chris that and freaked out without thinking of his feelings. He decided he didn't want to be with me because we fought too much. Excuse? I'm thinking so. There's the story. Now we're stuck leaving together sleeping in different beds. Oh and we used to work together until we broke up. Then I was fired because I was out of work too long for medical leave.
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Is there a reason for this insanity on his behalf? Is there a reason for yours?
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Diagnosed with Endometreousis.
Had surgery.
Out of work for two weeks.
Follow up appointment: I was told I had 1-3 years to conceive
I told Chris that and freaked out without thinking of his feelings.
He decided he didn't want to be with me because we fought too much.
Excuse? I'm thinking so.
There's the story.
Now we're stuck leaving together sleeping in different beds.
Oh and we used to work together until we broke up.
Then I was fired because I was out of work too long for medical leave.
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