He died ten years ago this Saturday.  Ten lifetimes ago.  Ten minutes ago.  Both.I braced myself for this.  I'm not sure what I was expecting, but this isn't it.  It's an unusually cold week in Los Angeles; my face hurts but I just feel frozen-- exactly as miserable as I have for most of the past ten years, give or take a degree ( Read more... )

Goodbye.


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Wow.  LJ no longer accepts HTML?

Sometimes, when I'm faced with the stupidity of what I've done, I can't understand why I didn't kill myself.

Cowardice.  The kind that freezes your bones in place.

There's been no forgiveness for me, no second chance.  I find myself now in a similar spot to where I was in 2001, but I'm not reacting correctly because I' ( Read more... )

  "What is a lucidogen?" It came from a wonderful song by the Young Gods, way back in 2000. Nobody's ever answered the question to my satisfation ( Read more... )

Nintendo: Best in show! A darling guy from our night crew and I waited four hours to Wii in front of a bunch of strangers. Beautiful presentation, nice little silver pin as a thank-you gift. The Wii is a little bigger than I expected, but it feels vey correct and I predict it will do very well. My favorite of the games they were showing were a ( Read more... )

    So tired I could die. Worked all weekend, and I'm having trouble sleeping. There's a big swirling mess of chaos inside my head and my asthma keeps peeking in. Finally talked to the manager in charge about E3 with the best-crafted set of arguments I've ever come up with, begging for information as to why this happened again, only to be told ( Read more... )

    It's 9:20 in the morning and my boss already gifted me with a new orifice for a very simple misunderstanding that was probably my fault but certainly didn't cause any deaths or even wasted time. He CC'ed the admonishment to a bunch of people I really respect, who will probably think I'm an idiot now, like I just sit here and fuck up for a ( Read more... )

Does anyone have any experience with Westside Rentals?

    I'm an immigrant, damnit. Why do I have to work today... just because I'm legal?!

feeling: like if anyone doesn't see I'm kidding I'm going to eat their soul

    E3 Time, when everything moves so much faster. Speed cheats IRL. That Time of the Year. The days of the mini-crunch, the false alarm of semi-importance where the only people who will see our handiwork are people who probably shouldn't. I dust off the international smile of "please put your video camera away". I feed off E3; I love it, I ( Read more... )