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ok. to be totally honest right now [ hey this is LJ, of course its honestt ] i am sooo freakin comfortable.

im sitting at the computer in sofie shorts, a sweat shirt, and UGGs, drinking an iced coffee
and im pretty much in bliss right now.

i miss being in love.
and i hate having to put on a fake smile so often now a days.

anyway.  kel and i went down south to virginia and west virginia for white water raftingg and the beachh.


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you know what?  i feel like everyone thinks im heartless and dont give a damn about a certain other person's feelings, when the truth is, im stuck lying awake at night trying to deal with everything and figure things out.  not a day goes by when i dont think about how much i hurt the guy i used to love.  we had so many great times and memories and ( Read more... )

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oh god i hurt.

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i feel like i can't even attempt to dig myself out of this huge ditch i made for myself.

its like im stuck.  nothings ever going to get better.
i ruined relationships and trusts and friendships and summer.
im seriously so mad at myself- just as everyone else.

whoaa. two entries in one day? and this is after i haven't posted in a while. mannn i must be desperately bored.

ohkay- so andrea is sending me a folder full of music aaaand im trying to pass the time because shes a homo and takes extremely long to follow through on stuff she says she'll do....  =)

anywayy- SURVEY? 
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its been a long ass time since i last updated. lets see ...
memorial day weekend was awesome. thursday- went with andrea to get her belly button pierced. then went to dutch to show it off to the boys, and then went back to kev's house where stuff was spilled but it was ohkay.
then fridayy we went to the beach. awesomee. water was cold and kev had ( Read more... )