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Today I got rejected from my backup plan. No grad school for me. Oh well, at least I still have unemployment and the soul crushing experience of trying to find a job.
Finding a job btw was my primary plan, I've been failing at that since November.
Fuck
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Randomly got inspired to haiku
A Balance of mind
Struck between moments of quiet
find solace in art
Pressure always builds
an unmitigated force
seeking a release
consume, ingest, eat
creating the other thing
building blocks of life
look at all the death
fundamental existence
to kill is to live
never stop breathing
inhale, exhale, and repeat
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Feelings about the GRE
Post from my phone. Will not use proper engrish formatting.
Took the gre today. Really stressed about it beforehand. First standardized test I've ever given a shit about. Historical tests were at 98-99th percentile. Doubt I did as well on this one.
Find out actual results in 2-3 weeks I understand.
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Weird night tonight
I don't know what is going on in the back of my head but I can't seem to relax and enjoy my evening. Maybe it's because I am alone this week, but I feel restless. Actually, restless isn't quite right I feel unconnected. As if my past only extends back about 7 years and anything prior to that has faded no just from memory but from access. Google ( Read more... ) -
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The last time I posted to LJ it was the middle of March 2011.
Saying that I post infrequently would be an understatement.
This post is so I can remember this bit of writing that has been kicking around in my head the last day or so:
"The Mountain Home is lost to us.
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Short, disturbing dream
Last night / early this morning I had a dream in which I was sitting in my house, at my computer I think. When my father walked past my open door. He was bare chested, and bare footed, wearing the set of "hospital blue" pajama bottoms he was fond of. I did not fully realize he was there at first, I think he walked by a time or two before I noticed ( Read more... )