my life has changed so much. i am trying to find new things to do to occupy mytime with so i am not bored out of my fucking mind all day long. I met someone. So far it is going pretty well. We'll see. School is getting better. I still get to graduate early which i am so incredibly happy about. College is hard, but i am getting through it. I have ( Read more... )

meditation was amazing last night. and today was a very wierd day at school. for the most part it was actually ok. They put me in economics. which is great because i need that class. and i am at el centro right now waiting for my computer class to start. i got alot of shit today from people. i cant even count the number of times people asked me how ( Read more... )

so things are weirder now than they have been in a very long time. I had my first day at the alternative school today. not too bad. its kind of like jail. and i learned more about drugs today than i have over my entire life. thats all those people talk about. and the guys are super horny. i am one out of 5 white people there. but there are some ( Read more... )

I got busted with pot at school. the police came and threatend to arrest me but it didnt have enough for them to do that. so they gave me a ticket instead and took my beautiful beautifl pipe away from me. so i have to go to court. which means that my mom has to get a lawyer and i will have to do community service and possibly probation. on top of ( Read more... )

wow so alot of bullshit going on right now. ann tried to rat me out to mom. barely passed my class. cant keep my job. and a person that i love very much might not ever talk to me again. this is great. i dont want to start school.

wow, this weekend was alot of different things. wonderful, pleasurable, amazing, loving, stoned, sick, hot, rainy and great. Had to take the morning after pill. It was scary. at took it before i went to sleep and woke up the next morning very sick. I was puking for about 5 to 6 hours. not fun at all. Then i was all shaken up and was not in the mood ( Read more... )

i am trying to figure out how i feel exactly about this whole jon thing. i know that its not his fault exactly, but it kind of pisses me off. he doesnt piss me off. just the situation. now he is telling me its this weekend, but i am having a suprisig amount of trouble believing it. honestly, i just dont want to get my hopes up again and just get ( Read more... )

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Considering the people that read this, it is intentional for you to read...ok the whole kitty thing. honestly i feel like fred getting to go to spend time with kitty alone because she hasnt gotten to yet is so stupid. i was really upset last night. i dont know if she could tell, but i was fighting back the tears very hard. we barely get to see her ( Read more... )

college. what can i say. so life has suddenly become aot different. i had really gotten into a groove of things and then all of a sudden it took a very abrupt turn. and it all started with those fucking shrooms. i dont feel like they changed me or they were the cause of anything, that just when i noticed things being different. I feel very ( Read more... )