so life has been both exciting and scary lately , but I realized I like that ... Ive been clean now for about two weeks and its weird how alert I am ... It's nice though .. I have a perception I never thought possible ... I have met a boy that has the brightest smile I've ever seen , I just wish I could keep the smiles coming instead of causing so ( Read more... )

I hate it when I get so caught up in an emotion that i pour my heart out as if the emotion Im feeling at the time completely encompasses who I am as a person, when it fact 90% of the time the emotions I feel are temporary. I guess Im writting this because I was just reading my last post and I realized how incredibly vain I can be... I dont need a ( Read more... )

Man those lyrics mean so much to me right now ... Tonight it just hit me ... this incredible feeling of loneliness... it all started when i was talking to Bijan... we were talking about living in new york and i was telling him of how Id love to live in new york and how Id want a boyfriend that wears scarfs and mittens and Id kiss him in the snow ( Read more... )

Every girl should have an Italian boy to speak Italian to her at 1:30 in the morning .... I LIKE SAL !

haha i thought mario might find this halrious .... or not .... um so here it goes ....

Last night was F-U-N ... i really cant say much more than that except it involved some danger alot of trespassing and breaking other various laws tons of fun and even more laughter ...oh and $6.14 ... haha Im sure it wouldnt matter if i really told everything that happened but I kinda said i wouldnt tell although SOMEONE will spill the beans , Im ( Read more... )

Im feeling MUCH better, Theres still a little hurt and what not left but mostly anger .. Im really ready to move in and find ... i dont even think i want another boyfriend right now ... i just wanna talk to a bunch of different people and see what i like cause at this point i dont even know what im looking for in a guy ... i definately dotn want ( Read more... )

Im glad I found out the shit I did today... It made me realize I needed to toughen the fuck up ... so i went and hung out with a friend and it felt good ... just to stop crying about shit and just get PISSED !!!! and so now Im over the pissed part and almost completely over the sad part .. i mean ill still miss things ... but ya know life goes on ( Read more... )

I couldnt sleep last night so I took some sleeping medicine... It didnt help ... it was so weird its like it paralyzed me ... because i was awake all night long thinking about you with my eyes closed ... i would drift off to sleep temporarily and I'd have a little dream about you calling to tell me you love me or you just missing me and us getting ( Read more... )

Man Oh Man .... Its fucking rediculous how I make a big deal out of some MEANINGLESS shit and then really horrible stuff happens ... I just need to learn to keep my fucking mouth shut... i was happy for once and like made myself fuck it up ... GOD DAMN ... Im like sad but pissed at the same time .. Justin helped me get the anger out ... haha ( Read more... )