no one posts in this anymore... it's been 66 weeks for me.... a lot happens in 66 weeks huh.

"...It's just that I don't want to be somebody's crush.  If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, not what they think I am.  And I don't want them to carry it around inside.  I want them to show me, so I can feel it, too.  I want them to be able to do whatever they want around me.  And if they do something I don't like, I'll tell them ( Read more... )

3.97

my GPA has gotten better every semester... so like... I guess I have to try to get a 4.0 this semester?  haha.  nahh... I wish I was more the type "to try," but we all know that's just not my style.  we'll see what happens.  :D

when I was little, I always wanted to have twins. then, as I got older, I realized the resposibility and work that goes into raising one baby was a handful in itself: imagine having to provide twice as much physically, emotionally, and financially ( Read more... )

I used to be such a burning example,
I used to be so original.
I used to care, I was being cared for.
Made sure I showed it to those that I love.

I used to sleep without a single stir,
'Cause I was about my father's work.

Well take me out tonight,
The ship of fools I'm on will sink.
A millstone around my neck,
Be my breath, there's nothing I wouldn ( Read more... )

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Ever since I was a little girl (actually ever since I was born), I've had a birthday party. My first "friend-party" I think was in first grade... possibly kindergarten though. Last year was the first year I didn't have a birthday party at my mom's house (she gave me $100 to have it at my apartment instead.. haha). And this year, she originally ( Read more... )

2 weeks! 2 weeks!  la la la la la la!

So one of the classes I'm taking is a memoir course (it's a big 6credit, year long, honors capstone experience kind of course).  I am 20; what the fuck am I doing writing a memoir?  Well, I have started writing some stories... and I just wanted to warn you:  You might be in them.  I might have a lot to say-- even though no one will care but us ( Read more... )

Dear Journal,

For the first time ever, I think I am going to drop a class.  I honestly just don't think I can handle it right now.

I neeeed to study for the GRE and start filling out all my applications.  I just want all of this to be over.  I guess if I drop a class, I can use that time to study, right?  Yeah.  Right.

I think it's officially over ( Read more... )