just booked a reservation for a room in a place called the HONEY BEAR lodge in big bear............we're leaving tomorrow morning :-)

the first half of today summarized in a list of what i've consumed : a breakfast burrito, vanilla yogurt w frozen mixed berries, pasta & ground turkey, four chapters of still life with woodpecker, and a berry smoothie ( Read more... )

i'm listening to davy on the record player with danny sitting in playing a video game. he's trying not to be involved. i'm not really offended though. davy kinda makes you feel like a hollywood hillbilly but you know what...it's kinda nice, kinda yipyappy but overall not too bad. i wonder if i would still be able to recognize myself 4 years ago if ( Read more... )

banana milk and longing for breakfast. still a little sad. for what i don't even know ( Read more... )

almost two whole hours in a rich state of depression. it was so rich, it was almost pleasurable and sorta sick at the same time. i've been a kind of insomniac, plagued with thoughts that i can't shake off with every given morning. it's gotten worse ever since it got hotter. summers running us so dry and i thirst for the worst every damn day.

late night shift that lasted until 2 in the am & then a double shift tomorrow starting at 12 noon. i hardly know what to say about that. it feels too good to be home, to be sleepy & to not be alone

"If you ask me; true religion is in the earth. It’s everything that grew or had wanted to grow. Not some room where the wicked can walk in unnoticed. Forgiveness is a joke. I think I prove that.”

at the fumble of trying to pack the vape genie as perfectly as possible last night i ended up waking up danny’s computer out of stand-by mode and then, out of my own carelessness, i just turned it off the way i always do instead of putting it back on stand-by the way danny always does. so when danny turned on the computer this morning he was ( Read more... )

i worked a sabado morning lunch shift without having to work the dinner shift for the first time in weeks…maybe months, maybe ever. i hardly remember these things anymore & somehow it makes me feel really gray & sheer. ghostly or something like it ( Read more... )

it was so windy & beauteous out today. i worked from 2:30 to 10:00 ( Read more... )