my uncle just exclaimed “is that a Louis Vuitton neck brace???” so I looked up and lo and behold some guy in this drama has a broken neck and is wearing a Louis Vuitton neck brace

filipino dramas

christmas eve with danny’s family this year was comforting. i haven’t spent the holidays with my family (except my immediate family) in so long, but to be honest i don’t really miss it. the last time i spent whatever festive time with them, i think i was about 16, hardly anyone talked to me and later on my aunt told me everyone was talking about ( Read more... )

my first crotchet proj turned out to be a scarf that thinned out in the end and then I forced it into a circle scarf. it’s so funny looking. it also sags in this way that makes for a pouch that I put my weed in for a little bit. it’s black and really warm and kinda itchy and I love it. MY FIRST EVER SCARF. going to sleep in it

today was pretty heavy. i really just wanted to be in the bath all night with the lights off and candles and maybe like decadent music softly playing in the background, and maybe a plate of grapes to up the romance while i'm @ it. instead i just sat around in my head all day & took a shower. though, i did light candles ( Read more... )

i don’t miss going to school but i miss the studio i miss painting i miss naples yellow & pthalo blue & cadmium red. i miss ceramics i miss using glazes with cute names like ‘pear skin’ and ‘dirty marshmellow’

my magic-8 ball is my best friend

i am so lonely sometimes. i think my worst quality is my developed fear of expressing myself / my feelings. in the rare times that i found myself able to freely express myself it was always such an accomplishment, or even more so, like some kind of fix. i’ll think about the moment days afterwards, weeks even, and i’ll venture out in search of it ( Read more... )

gradually becoming more & more distant. when i think about being alone i daydream about curling up into the center of a tulip as it closes up and i want to stay there

obsessed with nostalgia and secrets as a means of self-preservation. too much internet, i think. i miss intimacy & spring at 6 in the morning & when summers didn’t feel so hot. the highlights of my day were turning on the ac for 15 minutes (last months electric bill was not cool) and the tuna salad i made this morn drizzled in olive oil and ( Read more... )

"the middle of the day is still the yolk though"