yo, i am sure I will email you about this one. I feel you on a lot of what you have said. I think the point that hit me is the fact that trans has become this socio-political identity as opposed to some sort of medical condition with real treatments, wether alternative or traditional such as HRT. I dunno, i will hit you with an email soon. thanks for throwin this shit down though man. And shit this is your journal and your brain that you are splurtin online, this is your shit man, so thanks for sharing it.
The Tranny Boom...dirtyemployeeOctober 2 2003, 11:13:46 UTC
Maybe we should call it the Genderfuck Boom. This movement is more then trans, it's about fucking with gender, refusing to fit into gender boxes. It's exciting but there will be repercussions like any other big movement
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Re: The Tranny Boom...lukeboiOctober 2 2003, 13:36:17 UTC
I know some of your close buds have just started T. Its intense. Most of my closest queer friends from last year and the year before have all switched pronouns.
I feel guilty sort of, like, I know I am trans but can I hold out? Why am I so concerned if people think I am one of those trendy trannies? Because trans has those connotations for me now, I want to back out so bad..I want to distance myself from all of it and just be me...but I can't, its hard. I want to have a different name or pronouns or even change my body and not have to mean that that makes me trans when trans encompasses a lot of people and a lot of ways of going about it that aren't for me.
I really admire you for sticking to your guns. I think its rarer and rarer.
Re: The Tranny Boom...dirtyemployeeOctober 2 2003, 14:13:42 UTC
The toughest part about knowing so many trannies is when I'm hanging out with the uninformed, like skate guys, or whoever and I want to do my pals justice and refer to them by their pronoun of choice but I also sometimes feel ashamed of acting so nonchalant about it when the people I am talking to are looking at me like, "dude, why are you calling that girl, 'he'?"
if you think it's bad at hampshire, you should've gone to smith! ;) then, in addition to dealing with irritating trannies and tranny wannabes and the "i am so much more radical and queer than you because my transness is different from yours and i was trans since the minute i emerged from the womb and i don't even know why i went to this fucking college because these butch dykes are making ME invisible and oh my god i am so oppressed no one understands no one else is like me so i will tell you all about me for hours as if you care" types, you could have that following you around for the rest of your life. or have people continue to argue with you about where you got your dumb ol' BA anyway (which feels more and more useless by the minute
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Dude, I totally have the same fears and judgements, but as evidenced from my post, I pussyfoot around saying what I really want to say for fear of getting chased by a tranny lynch mob. Plus I don't even think I want to get involved in battles over legitimacy. I know my thought process on this shit is fucked up (at least I err on the side of caution), so I go there only in my head, but I'd love to see people being honest about that shit.
About leaving school...yeah, I am ready to get the fuck out of the collegiate, upper middle class liberal white queer radical paradigm. I want to go somewhere and finally be somewhere where a sex change is possible to be seen as that, just a sex change, not a fucking personal manifesto or political move too.
and you know what? most of the time, that's all it feels like to me: i was born female, i lived as a girl for awhile, and now i'm a guy. i prefer gender change to sex change, but same thing. other things i have done in my life have been much more radical and politically charged. THIS is about my life--it's not a statement, i'm just doing what i need to do to keep living it. and i promise that things get better once you get the hell out of the valley.
I like your thoughts....rainbowskyOctober 2 2003, 11:59:50 UTC
I love reading your journal, because you put thoughts out there that no one dares to say, or just doesn't want to voice it here in this journal
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This discussion is a very good one, and seems to be very interesting to me. I wish I could say I see this huge cultural socio-political identity boom, but I don't see that on a day-to-day basis. My only outlet for my trans identity is the Internet. Everywhere else I am seen, as a man, and I don't plan on ever being out with my trans identity. To me if feels almost as if being trans is "transitional". It seems that it is my big step to crossing over to another physical plane
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I feel guilty sort of, like, I know I am trans but can I hold out? Why am I so concerned if people think I am one of those trendy trannies? Because trans has those connotations for me now, I want to back out so bad..I want to distance myself from all of it and just be me...but I can't, its hard. I want to have a different name or pronouns or even change my body and not have to mean that that makes me trans when trans encompasses a lot of people and a lot of ways of going about it that aren't for me.
I really admire you for sticking to your guns. I think its rarer and rarer.
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About leaving school...yeah, I am ready to get the fuck out of the collegiate, upper middle class liberal white queer radical paradigm. I want to go somewhere and finally be somewhere where a sex change is possible to be seen as that, just a sex change, not a fucking personal manifesto or political move too.
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Totally. A fucking sex change. Thank you. Hell, I'd get a sex change if the word trans was taken out of the equation.
for fear of getting chased by a tranny lynch mob
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i was born female, i lived as a girl for awhile, and now i'm a guy. i prefer gender change to sex change, but same thing. other things i have done in my life have been much more radical and politically charged. THIS is about my life--it's not a statement, i'm just doing what i need to do to keep living it. and i promise that things get better once you get the hell out of the valley.
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