Talking with a friend today he described how he never writes about something personal until after the emotional part has passed. He didn't want to just vomit emotion on the page so, he waits. It's a smart idea, I mean, I like it. There is a negative consequence to this though. I believe it's important to vomit some emotion sometime. People ( Read more... )

I was depressed today. Thinking about women or maybe just one woman. Either way I was thinking about my life and how I feel like a failure. I feel like shit and honestly I think I still do but I'm okay with it now ( Read more... )

"I'm halfway listening to what she thinks she knows. We're like children dressing in our parents clothes."

-mewithoutYou

I've been told twice in the span of an hour that love does not exist. We could look at the sciences and deduce that love is a manifestation of our emotions. That's always been the battle, faith and science. If I can think and know that I am then why, if I feel can I not know that I love? That's the beauty of faith, emotions, and the mind nobody ( Read more... )

My thoughts about home are a bit different now. I love living by myself for small reasons. I love living with my family because they're amazing and they'll do anything for me. At my place I can drink, fuck, and do whatever I want to. At home I get the good stuff though. After an entire year of living on my own I still refer to my parents house ( Read more... )

I wanted to miss you the most but really... I missed my pin. You could keep the key to my place and steal all of my shit but just make sure I have my pin back on my shirt. You probably didn't realize how much that meant to me but a dear friend gave that to me and I'll never give it to any girl again until the day I marry. I've worn it everyday ( Read more... )

I've bitten all of my nails to nubs. My tips are now naked and cold. They allow the cold that haunts me to finally enter my body, like a violent wind waiting to cause unreasonable tremors ( Read more... )

I'll bury my sadness and inevitably bury my passion for that sadness. I'm up against a battle I cannot win. I'm up against an unbeatable force; its name is existence. Ernst Haeckle believed that evolution was a constant movement toward perfection. I thought progression was a guaranteed perfection. Natural Selection's requirements are that a ( Read more... )

This Autumn has been interesting. If you had told me in July where I was going to be right now I'd probably tell you that you didn't know me very well. Now I tell myself that. Life isn't exciting because it throws curve balls at you... It's exciting because you don't ever really know yourself until the incredible moment of now is born.

Cabin fever is a remedy for shit life right now. It's better than chemotherapy. Tell me this is worth it!