I've been remembering interesting dreams lately and thought I should record them ( Read more... )

I've been so bored and restless lately. I looked for a roommate because I didn't want to live alone, and now that her work takes her away for weeks at a time, I find myself sitting in front of the tv alone at night, pretending to work on my watercolor project. Though I get to see some of them sometimes, I begin to feel rather friendless. I guess I ( Read more... )

When I didn't hear from Matt Sunday, I went ahead and sent a letter. He called me this morning. He didn't seem angry, just disappointed and maybe slightly resentful. I hate that I've done this to him, that I'm not secure enough in how I feel to stay with him through this. Maybe this is the one last painful thing to go through before healing. I hope ( Read more... )

I am pretty settled on breaking up with Matt ( Read more... )

Since my letters to Matt are pretty much diary entries with a bunch of mushy love stuff thrown in, I thought I'd just cut and paste from them to describe my life at this point. Sort of like that book, Letters to a Young Poet by Rainer Maria Rilke, which I never finished because I didn't have enough free time at that point. Oh well, point still ( Read more... )

Dear God, when does it end ( Read more... )

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I've been reluctant to post, as I feel like I'm in some sort of stasis that keeps me thinking in the same patterns, and therefore, don't have much new to say.

I still like my job, though as we get busier, it gets more tiring. Saturday, we passed 2,500 something people through the gate. Or rather, we sold that many tickets. Est. 50 people or so must ( Read more... )

Still enjoying work. Haha I have to tell EVERYBODY about the 15 year old kids caught having sex in the women's bathroom in the lobby. Although I was in the lobby, I knew nothing about it until the doors were closed. Actually, I do recall now a couple of people being escourted out by our security and wondering why. As one of the girls from the ( Read more... )

My first night at 13th Gate went well. My makeup was excellent, it wasn't too busy, and I spent my free time chatting with the first clown in Psychosis, Kayla, or having dance-offs with the girl across the lobby. It's terribly fun listening to people scream. It might be fun to be an actor. Kayla said I was lucky, though. Most first year girls get ( Read more... )