J: id love to have you whenever you can be here. i dotn need valentines day to let you know how much you mean to me
J: (take THAT hallmark)
Me: oh damn.
Me: wow that's good :-)

Sorry ladies, but he's MINE :)

Spending the night in what I'm going to be calling home for... well, indefinitely. Indefinitely meaning an unsure end, and not necessarily forever ( Read more... )

Slowly and slowly the living space I'd called my home for the past year and a half is coming down. And yes I am sad. Not only did I not get the job offer at work I'd been hoping for (I DID get a job offer, but nothing that I could really support myself with), now I'm going to have to move back home to my parents house. AN HOUR AWAY from where I ( Read more... )

J and I have been dating since July 2003, roughly 18 months. It was always the plan from the time we began to get serious that it would be me who'd relocate to Houston once I was finished with school. Now that I'm finished, that plan has fallen to the wayside for more opportunities here in Dallas ( Read more... )

There are days like today where I wonder why he even loves me. Why he's attracted to me. I'm nothing special, I'm nothing amazing. I look at all his friends and I see how expressive they are and I envy them. I look at him and I admire how expressive he is, how beautiful his words are and I only wish I could emanate that same beauty ( Read more... )

Chad, our video editor, is in his office viewing some classroom footage of a teacher and some kids. The kids are really excited and cheering which is pretty loud ( Read more... )

Spent 5 days in Houston with J. Realized a few things and cried only once this time. We spent New Year's Eve at a friend's party. It was ok. Not great. It was my first New Years Eve away from the family and I kinda hated it, being with all these strangers and not really knowing where I fit in. Halfway, I became somewhat peeved because Jay left me ( Read more... )

It's snowing right now. Snowing so much that you can see nothing but white all around. And it's strange because the past two days have been unusually warm, I haven't been using a jacket at all ( Read more... )

Bored ( Read more... )

I'm just simmering right now. I think J and I have reached a fork in our relationship. Inside, I'm so frustrated that I don't know if I want to cry or to put my fist through a wall. I'm graduating in December and we've been discussing what it is we want to do about the living situation ( Read more... )