sticky afternoon;

[luminette]

so i got into university (unconditional offer), and i've had the most exhausting uneasy weekend. and i don't know - i'm so disillusioned; disconnected. from everybody but somebody.

and now i'm going to curl up and sleep next to him.

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[ex_bloodoran155]

unconditional offer!! congratulations sweetie!
i feel terrible that our spare room is full of broken things. a broken inflatable chair, a broken television, a broken telephone, a broken lamp. but there are also a lot of books. and i also have a room full of chinchillas. ho-hum, i fear i am rambling. but anyhow, WELL DONE on the uni offer.
xoxoxoxox

[luminette]

oh, don't worry about the broken things! don't feel bad!

+ thankyou!!

xx

[mettle]

oh, congratulations on the unconditional offer - fantastic news. hope everything else falls into place soon. x.

[luminette]

oh, it probably will. just, oh, it's complicated. friendships are very strange things. especially when you add the 'e.d.' words to the equation. you know?

thankyou so much.

xx

[ex_oven196]

oh josie, well done, i'm so proud.
e-mail me as soon as you can will you? i need to get out of here NOW! or at least know when it'll be when i'll be out of here, so i can plan, a time spectrum, you know?
yeah, i'm excited baby!

and then soon, when we're disconnected, we can be useless and do nothingfor a bit and it won't matter.

xlove

[luminette]

I'm ten times busy at the moment (playing hostess to friends & work work work & going away on Monday) - but I'm in work alone tomorrow morning so I'll try and email you from there. Rar!

And thankyou for the well-done-ness.
God; if I can convince people that I'm suitable for university study then anybody can do it.

xx

[libellum]

congratulations on the offer - those things are far more nerve wracking than they have a right to be.

(apologies if I'm intruding, I'm not sure how secret this place is meant to be. If you'd rather I wasn't here, just say. x)

[luminette]

Oh, I'm not sure that it was nervewracking as such. I knew I'd given a good interview and such. But it's the waiting. That's what bothered me. The time for my mind to twist itself around all of the reasons why they wouldn't accept me.

Etc. .....

You're not intruding at all (it's an internet journal)!
just, errrr - i don't know how close you are with annie or anything, but don't let her peek over your shoulder! hypocritical, yes, but there's a marked difference between people and people from launceston. on many, may levels.

xx

[libellum]

My own brain is so so often my own worst enemy when it has time to think about things like that. Waiting for a-level results was the worst though; I think part of it is helplessness, your future being out of your hands.

Actually I've never been close to Annie at all. She left Downing at the beginning of last term and I've not been in touch with her since. And I absolutely understand what you mean - escapism is sacrosanct and should be kept strictly separate from whatever Real Life it is you're escaping. So never fear. xx

[anonymous]

Knew you'd do it sweets! Great to see all that talent being channelled, make the most of it. You'll go far whatever you do. Nina xox

[luminette]

Nina tastes like berries.

Berries, and Lecherous Men.