I find that I come here when I'm contemplative in one direction or another. I might be stuck in a sadly dramatic space, close to depression for a moment in time. Then I write it down and it's somehow over but still reminds me in memory. I'm not sure if that is good or bad, but it seems to be a process that has brought me this far, so I think I'll ( Read more... )

So I've settled into a new abode with soft grass in the back yard and warm sunshine streaming through my bedroom windows. It's definitely a nice change, although I'm still working out furniture and unpacking. So now I have a flat mate and a neighborhood and even a cat. Beautiful. A different kind of summer begins.

This is me ( Read more... )

A year today since I started work in NZ, and I have a strange buzz in my bloodstream this week. It's a consistent nervousness and questioning. I'm not sure if it's because I've been so busy, or may be jet lagged from Sydney, but perhaps it could also be my mind settling on the other things that happened a year ago. Part of me will never stop ( Read more... )

For a long time now I have dreamed of having a coffee shop. I'd decorate it with a library of books, comfortable couches and lounge chairs in vintage colors, and mosaic table tops. I'd have baked creations honoring my mother, hot drinks from all over the world (yerba mate, bolivian hot chocolate, flat whites, and tibetan buttered tea), and maybe ( Read more... )

I'm looking at my Scrabble game, all boxed up on the bookshelf. Its logo is vintage, unchanged for so many years. Some of those years I watched my grandparents play against my parents on the old card table, and then my brother joined in after my Nanny passed away, until the day when i finally outscored my father playing against him one on one in my ( Read more... )

Tough week. It started with the weather bringing me down, weird disturbing dreams every night, and then just my head...and July 6th around the corner...and why that effects me so much even now I can't ever understand ( Read more... )

I've been house sitting in Ponsonby and decided to stay in my apartment last night as I've been missing my own cozy bed and high-pressure shower. Instead of feeling so comforted by being back inthis space, though, the temporary detachment has lead me to experience it as nostaligic. I see the ghost of me curled up on the floor at the head of the bed ( Read more... )

So google just released this new Ad Planner beta and I've been tempted to contemplate it, along with the free analytics solutions, content network, map toold, oh right, and of course the Google branded world domination ( Read more... )

I had a vivid dream last night full of way too much symbolism, but beautiful imagery. I actually recall a moment in the dream when i wish I had a camara. A snapshot of my imagination, perhaps...it would capture how homesick i feel when i learn of my friends moments (engagements, pregnancies, deaths...). There are so many I can't be there for, and i ( Read more... )