WHOLE LOTTA LOVE - CHAPTER 10 PART 2

[luna_no_koibito]

Title: Whole Lotta Love
Chapters: 10.2 /??
Author: luna_no_koibito
Genre: Romance, Life
Warnings:  men/men relationship, cursing, sex, violence.
                      FOR THIS STORY the band NIGHTMARE will be a PS Company band
Rating: from PG -15 to PG -17 (Depending on chapter)
Pairing: Shou,Gackt (main) Ruki/Hyde, Kai/Ruka, Hiroto/Reita, Miyavi/Hizaki
               (more pairs will appear as the story proceeds)
Bands: Gazette, Alice Nince, Nightmare, Versailles, Kra (for now ...)
Summary:
                   Year: 2004
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Extra:

MAIN


Chapter 10 part 1

It wasn't okay, it wasn't right at all, and he knew it, he knew he wouldn't have been able to keep up the farce for much longer. Dancing together was something that friends could do without problems, it was a normal occurrence, but obviously, the reason why Kra's drummer was dancing with him at the moment, had nothing to do with friendship, and it just felt wrong, so very wrong, because he didn't even want to be there, not with him.

Yasuno was attractive, no doubt about that, and a smooth-talker as he had confirmed throughout the entire evening, where the elder just kept hitting on Shou relentlessly. The vocalist would smile at his jokes, be polite at his courtesy, and tried his best to seem less distant as he could, but it had gotten too much and now that the typical only slow song had made it's appearance, among the awaiting dancers, as soon as the drummer attempted to place his arms around the vocalist's waist, the younger couldn't pretend anymore, as he quickly placed his hands on those of the not so shocked elder.

-I am sorry … I- quickly replied Shou, not needing to shout anymore, for the volume of the ballad wasn't as high - … can you please take me home? I don't feel to- tried to explain the singer but was readily interrupted by the drummer, who retracted his hands, and taking the younger of guard, smiled

-it's okay, let's go, I'll take you home- stated the elder, taking the vocalist by his hand and guiding them towards their table where Ruki and Uruha where silently sitting.

-We are leaving, I am taking Shou home … he is not feeling to well - announced the drummer, looking at the inquiring expression on Ruki's face, who swiftly turned to observe his cousin

-What happened? Did- tried to ask Ruki, but the younger blonde had been quicker

-Nothing to worry about, really, I am just … tired- replied Shou

-Okay then, I guess we are going as well - stated Ruki, as he tried to stand up, but was roughly pulled back to his seat by Uruha, who looked rather miserable in his currently over drunken state.

-I … - chanted the guitarist - am not … - he hiccuped - … quite done yet!- he then concluded, placing his head on his arm, which was resting on the back of the leather couch.

-Well … - interjected Shou - … I guess I'll see you later -

-Bye- swiftly added the drummer, nodding, and still holding the young vocalist by his hand they walked out of the still packed club. Once outside, Shou began his walk towards the elder's vehicle, but was pulled back by the unmoving elder, who was still holding his hand.

-Let's take a walk ... - he proposed with the same smile he had carried the whole evening

-I really want to- tried to plead the younger

-It won't take too long … - immediately interjected the elder - … we really need to talk -

Shou studied the now rather firm expression on the drummer's feature, and though he really had no intention of spending another second with somebody other that his beloved Gackt, he had the sudden feeling that he needed to hear whatever the drummer had to tell him, not that he had a choice in the matter though; given that he wasn't the one driving.

Thus, they began their walk, both of them keeping their hands and gazes away from each other, proceeding in silence towards nowhere, until the elder suddenly sighed, and commenced the awaited topic.

-Tonight, I really had come with the intention of hitting on you ... - confessed the elder, still keeping his stare in front of him - you're quite attractive, and definitely someone, who would suit my taste, someone, who I wouldn't easily give up pursing, and that was my intention … -paused the elder, as Shou quickly glimpsed at the drummer's sighing figure, and trying to understand, exactly what direction was this conversation going.

-… but I just can't - suddenly replied the elder with a distressed chuckle - I really tried to... but ... I guess I love him too much and … I guess ... that's just it - concluded the drummer, as a bewildered Shou suddenly stopped on his tracks, staring at the still walking drummer in front of him

-Love him? ... - hesitantly asked the blonde, as the pink haired drummer, slowly turned around to face him with a faint smile, also stopping on his track, and revolving his gaze to the night sky as he sighed once more.

-Yeah … and you do as well don't you? - calmly inquired the drummer, observing the utterly stupefied expression on the face of the vocalist, who was trying really hard to keep his calm, wondering if it were really possible that the drummer had something to do with … Gackt?

-Uh? … - was all that could manage the still bemused vocalist

-If you didn't, you wouldn't have been so adamant throughout the entire evening, and the phone call and the way you reserved yourself … there is clearly someone else, and I can tell- quietly explained the elder - … because I do to- concluded the drummer with a little grin, lowering his head to stare at his feet - and it is also clear … that we both are not allowed to be with said people, reason why, I decided to give it a try with you, I thought that maybe … maybe I could forget him as easy, maybe it was just an infatuation ... - kept on the elder - … but I failed!- he then suddenly explained with a feign diverted tone- and … now I know, I can't be with anyone else but him, it's as simple as that - stated the elder matter-of-factly, glancing at the still completely speechless and shocked vocalist.

-So I have a proposal … - swiftly added the elder- I don't need to know, who you are dating, and I ams sure you don't care about who I am … but we can pretend to be together, just to have some sort of cover, and stop people from wondering and confabulating about our private life - proposed the the elder.

-So … - attempted the younger - you are saying we should pretend to be a couple, to keep everyone quiet, while we would in fact, be staying with our true lovers? … -

-Precisely- dryly stated the drummer - of course we would have to inform our partners of such fact, and maybe make a few trivial changes, such as editing the name of your lover on your cell phone, and putting mine instead, in order to make it as believable as possible, and of course I'll do the same, and other things of such nature … - began observing the elder - then, we'd have to also find the time to meet, and have a date just the two of us, to keep the appearance … so what do you say?- concluded the elder still studying the now firm expression on the vocalist face - … I am not planning on leaving him anytime soon, so is either this, or we are on our own.

… Perfect ... simply genius, thought Shou, who had stopped listening to what the elder had to say, a long time ago, as he thought through all the possibility this turn of events would give him and Gackt.

-Fine with me - decidedly replied the vocalist, smiling at the drummer, who grinned in reply.

-Good then … - swiftly replied the elder, resuming his walk in the opposite direction, directing himself to his car - shall I take you home … love?-

-Well most certainly … honey- promptly replied the younger, placing his arm under the offered one of the elder, as they laughed their way to his car, and drove straight to the two vocalists' house.

-Ok then, you have my number, so … we'll see I guess - stated the drummer, looking at he vocalist, who was now outside his car, looking back at him from the rolled down window

-Sure, goodnight - Shou replied, as the drummer nodded and resumed his drive, while the blonde turned around to face the gate to their entrance. Once inside, he skipped all they way up to his room, and ungracefully threw himself on the bed. Turning around on his bedsheets, he pulled out his cell phone, and scrolled down, until he found the name he was looking for … Yasuno.

-Moshi … moshi ...Juliet? - giggled a groggily voice.

-Hey … sorry I am calling you this late ...I just … - paused the vocalist, turning on his side - really wanted to apologize for what happened today … - explained the younger

-It is alright - swiftly replied the other voice - when you first called me okaasan I was so confused though, but then I caught on, luckily -concluded the singer with a laughter

-Sorry again… - chuckled the younger -but I have good news Romeo, very good news for the two of us. It's a long story, a bit tricky, and full of surprises, so listen carefully!- jokingly stated the younger vocalist

-Wow, sound good already, tell me- hurried the elder

-well … -

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-Uruha we better go … - stated Ruki, attempting to gain the guitarist attention, by shaking his shoulder, which, as the rest of the honey blonde's body, was slumped on the clubs leather couch - it's too late now, we have practice tomorrow … and you don't look well- observed the vocalist, getting off the couch, extending his hand to their lead guitarist.

-Mpfh … Like … you cared … - bitterly smirked the elder, slapping his hand away, and unsteadily getting up, trying to get to the exit, from the wrong direction. Ruki was so taken aback from his friends harsh words, and gesture, that it took him a few seconds to reach for Uruha and redirect him in the right way, as he tried to hold him steady, but was once again pushed away.

-I .. don't need you … or your ... help- irritatedly spat the elder, pushing his way among the still dancing crowed on the dance floor, while being very closely followed by the vocalist, who was still rather confused.

As they reached Ruki's car, they both silently entered, and before the younger would start the engine, he decided to inquire what had upset his friend.

-Did something happen? - swiftly asked the vocalist, turning towards the guitarist's yet again slumped figure, who simply snorted

-...Where to start … - whispered the taller, fixing his absent gaze on the street in front of him, while shifting to lean on the closed car door -let's … just go … I am tired … really … tired -added Uruha, vaguely pointing at the road in front of him, with his hand.

Ruki decided not to press the matter further, for he didn't want to upset the already drunken and irritated guitarist, thus he simply brought his stare to the street in front of him, and started the engine.

The drive proceeded silently, Ruki wondering what had he done this time, seeming that everything he touched or that was around him, seemed to fall into pieces, while he so often glanced at the guitarist, who suddenly spoke mildly startling him.

-Do … you have any idea … - steadily stated the guitarist, as if he weren't drunk - do yo have any idea of how any of us felt when you disappeared two years ago? … - he concluded, keeping his current posture, with a tiny hint of hurt in his tone.

Ruki lightly startled at the question, for one, he didn't expect to be once again brought back to that dreaded past, so suddenly and so abruptly, and secondly, he didn't expect it to come from the guitarist. He suddenly felt himself getting rigid, as if he had to protect himself from some sort of attack, as he remained silent, and kept his gaze on the road in front of him.

-Tsk … like you would have done that … if you had ever thought of it- smirked the guitarist, as he kept on in his rambling - … or maybe you would have … - he then concluded, almost in a whisper, which hadn't been low enough, for the vocalist had readily heard every single word.

-I … why you say ...that?- swiftly replied Ruki, with a tone that was almost offended, but at the same time shocked, as he realized that he had in fact never thought about it, he had never thought about anyone else but Hyde; nobody else.

-Shou was panicking …did you know that? ... he was distraught - nonchalantly began the guitarist - and we … we didn't know what to think … at complete loss of words, every means we tried to reach … failed, and I … - suddenly paused the guitarist -. .. I … really thought … - Uruha tried to continue, but his words were were suddenly trapped in his throat, as a sob surprised him instead, swiftly making him place a hand in front of his mouth, as tears slowly began to fall.

Ruki didn't know what to say. This was the first time he had been confronted with that particular aspect of what had happened, for when he had returned, everyone began to treat him like nothing had happened, they wanted to forget that anything had even happened at all, and he had been alright with such pretension as well.

Not speaking a word, they arrived to the guitarist apartment complex. None of them made any sign of wanting to move, or say anything, as the guitarist, who had ceased his crying, suddenly opened the door and dangerously swayed out of it, at which Ruki rapidly jumped out the car, and walking around it, he went and sustained the taller, who didn't not refused his help this time.

Opening the main entrance, had been an ordeal, and after they were able to open it ten minutes later, Ruki decided it would have been better if he took control of the situation, and at least make sure that the elder, safetly got in bed. Thus, they took the elevator to the guitarist apartment, and snatching the keys from his hands, he unlocked the door, and led them in.

The vocalist removed his shoes, and thought he would have had to remove the elder one's too, but even if quite ungracefully and unsteadily, the taller man had successfully got rid of his, and immediately held himself against Ruki, who pulled his arm over his shoulder, and proceeded his walk towards the elder's bedroom. He pushed the door open with his leg, and dragging them to the bed, he tried to sit the elder on it, who simply sat, and absently observed the singer.

-Do you need me to undress you?- jokingly asked Ruki, with a little smirk, hoping to get the other's attention, who was still blankly staring at him, but getting no reply, he sighed, and reached for the elder's jacket, in attempt to pull it off, but he was promptly stopped by the elder, who grabbed but his hands, and suddenly pulled the bewildered vocalist into his bed, placing himself on top of him.

-U-uruha … - hesitantly inquired the younger, who had been caught completely off guard, and whose arms were now strongly pinned to the bed, above his head, by the elder who was also firmly straddling him along his waist. The guitarist then leaned into the crook of his neck and began kissing him, slowly moving up along it.

-Uruha- called the vocalist in a calm voice, but the elder didn't stop, and instead began to suck on his skin, and moved his body on top of his, making their crotches touch, thanks to which he now knew that the other was already aroused.

-Stop it- he then swiftly warned, trying to free himself from the grip around his wrist, to no avail -Uruha stop it ...- remarked the blond, as the elder kept rubbing their crotches together -Kouyou!- he then suddenly yelled, this time trying harder to release himself, but still unsuccessfully, as the guitarist slowly raised his head from the vocalist neck, and placed it centimeters away from his face, their lips incredibly close.

-Get off me … you reek- tried to explain the vocalist, swiftly turning his head to the side, placing his ear right beneath the elder's lips, who hesitated for a while, and bend in closer he began to whisper.

-Is there a way … - commenced the other, keeping silent for a few second - is there a way, you can forget about him? … about Hyde - he asked, slowly loosening his grip from the younger's wrist, as the vocalist startled at the mentioning of the other singer's name, swiftly tuning around to face the deeply pained expression on the guitarist face with eyes wide open. Uruha then dropped his head into the vocalist crook, and placing his arms loosely around his sides, he spoke once again, his words barely audible, for he was practically speaking on his bedsheets.

-Is there away … - he commenced, pausing once more - ... I ... can make you forget? - he concluded keeping his stance, on the immensely stupefied singer.

Too many questions were now rushing through the vocalist mind, as he also tried to take in what he had just been confessed by his band mate. Had he always known about him and Hyde, or had he seen him tonight? But most of all, how hadn't he noticed such feelings, and how long had it been since the guitarist had felt that way? He suddenly felt disgusted, not towards the painfully released sort of confession that he had just heard, but for his lack of awareness, for the indifference he had apparently bestowed his best friend with.

-Would you … can you- suddenly resumed the guitarist, shifting himself a bit closer to the younger's neck - stay here with me … for tonight? - in hesitantly requested -... please? - he then silently whispered.

The vocalist wasn't sure of what was the wises thing to do, but at the moment, he just felt so horrible and guilty, that without thinking, he circled his arms around those of the guitarist, who didn't make any signing of wanting to remove from above him, and sighed.

-Um - he then hummed in agreement, tightening his grip around the guitarist.

He didn't have any feelings for the honey blonde past friendship, thought Ruki as he leaned his head, on the one of the elder man, but it felt good, it felt wonderfully relieving to feel cared of again, to feel loved by someone again.

He then slowly began to caress his hand on the elder's back, trying to sooth him into sleeping. Later in the day, there would have certainly being a gazillion of questions to make and answered to give, as they would both certainly be basking into a sea of confusion and discomfort, especially with a sober guitarist. However, for the time being, he would have treasured this newly rediscovered emotions, it had been so long.

Thus, he closed his eyes, and allowed himself to be lulled into sleep by the steady pace of the already sleeping guitarist, feeling so calm and relaxed, that he also began to dream for the first time in two years.

-Hyde .. - he whispered in his sleepy

-... Ruki - Uruha cried in his.

Chapter 11 part 1

A/N: Finally complete chapter 10! sorry for the wait! As I had said in previous post yesterday, it is gong to be hard for a while for me to update regularly, depending on how busy it gets with my DEAREST guest (love my cousin, and her too kids (^_^!!) ) So for now enjoy this, and I'll try to update as soon, and as often as I can! [it will be sporadically and random, but better than nothing I hope (-_^;)]