HOUSE OF SIN - The Diary of Uke Yutaka : CHAPTER 8 PART 2
Title: HOUSE OF SIN - The Diary of Uke Yutaka
Chapters: 8.2/??
Author: luna_no_koibito
Genre: Human drama, romance, war, angst.
Warnings: men/men relationship, cursing, sex, violence, incest.
Rating: from PG -15 to NC-17 (Depending on chapter)
Pairing: Revealing this might spoil the story just yet ... suggest looking at the character list (^_^)!
Bands: the GazettE, Dir En Grey, X-Japan, Nightmare, An Cafe', Alice Nine, Kra, SuG.
Disclaimer: I don't own them, and don't wish I did because I'd be sorry for what could befall them （・＿・；）！
Summary: ( Synopsis )
MAIN
CHAPTER 8 PART 1
-Takeru! Takeru! ... open this door, at this moment!- angrily yelled Akira, pounding his fist on the closed door of his younger siblings room
-Exactly which word in the sentence I am not here do you not understand? ...- calmly replied Takeru from the other side -... for begin a famed lawyer, you seem to lack very basic traits my dear brother, and lack of comprehension, might instantly end your carrier, you really should be careful .. - pointed out the younger in feign concern.
-I am warning you! Don't let me force myself in!- retorted the elder with another bang
-Nhhhh … would you now? ...- smirked the other
-I swear Takeru, I- the elder blond was about to yell back, when he suddenly spot a familiar figure walking towards him -... Yasuno ...- he then whispered in relief, walking towards the eldest blond
-Please help me … he somehow manged to luck me out... and I don't trust him alone in there ...- he resignedly sighed, a faint smile appearing on the elder, as an image of a rather young Akira flashed in front of him, reminding him of how Akira used to always come to him, when in need, which hadn't happen at all ever since, unless it had anything to do with Takeru.
-Unfortunately Akira ...- began the elder with an apathetic expression -I am afraid I am a bearer of bad news-
-What do you mean- swiftly inquired the younger
-Me and Ayaka decided to get married next mon- he calmly tried to announce, but was abruptly interrupted by the lawyer
-You cannot- plainly stated Akira - sternly staring at the elder - there was a reason why we settled for a year Yausno. Didn't you see what happened to him some minutes ago?- he annoyingly observed, pointing his index finger in direction of Takeru's room -and that was just because I told him that you might not love him ...- he clarified, as the eldest simply walked past him, towards the room in question -Yasuno, seriously, do not - exclaimed the younger, swiftly catching up with him -we need to talk this ov- he tried to advise, but the elder was already knocking on the door
-Takeru? ...- Yasuno calmly called, and silence fell among the three of them, which was soon after broke by the room's resident.
-You, go to hell ...- firmly stated Takeru -... you might find me there... - he then swiftly added in a lower resigned tone.
-We need to talk ...- calmly stated the elder, tentatively holding down the knob, bu the door didn't obviously opened.
-And you need my room to do so? - exclaimed the other in pretense stupor -I am sure Akira wouldn't mind taking it somewhere else … right Mr. lawyer- he then shouted
-I am coming in Takeru ...- resignedly stated the elder, bringing out a pair of keys from the pocket of his jacket
-Please do … not that I can remember a time I ever denied you that ...- sarcastically smirked the younger -... but I guess you decided to deny me after, didn't you ...- he then swiftly added, which sentence, harshly shoved up the memory of that fateful night.
He had needed to rest for an important business trip he would have had the following day, reason why he decided to hit the sack earlier than usual, as he always did when he had such appointments, trying his best to ignore all the whining, and pleas coming from an ever beginning Takeru, whom couldn't tag along with him because of school. Even though he hadn't done much during the entire week, for he had taken a vacation from his business, leaving them in the trusted hands of his superintendents, he felt rather exhausted, for staying around the youngest, was resulting more an more strenuous, lately in particular.
Thus, he was about to drift off into a well deserved sleep, when the side of the mattress behind his back suddenly sank, and a pair of lean arms wrapped around his waist, the feeling of lips on his neck following soon after.
-...Takeru?...- he hesitantly inquired, as he tentatively touched said arms, and reaching the only logical conclusion; he could have recognized those arms any time. There used to be a time when Takeru would sneak into his room, whenever he had nightmares, but that was when the younger was still a child, and not a fifteen year old as in that moment
-Hmm?...- nonchalantly hummed the younger, snuggling his nose on the elders neck
-What are you doing? ...- inquired Yasuno, managing to turn around on his other side, facing the younger, and unknowingly, he ended up staring at him, the moon rays were shining so naturally on his delicate features, as he performed an innocent and almost shy smile; he was beautiful.
-What does it look like I am doing? ...- suddenly whispered the younger in a teasing tone, scooting a litte closer
-I don't know ...- cautiously replied the elder, impulsively pulling back a bit, suddenly feeling uneasy within such a proximity with the younger, who simply remained silent, his lips still shaped in that smile, as he scooted in further to regain the lost distance.
-... Take- tried to replied the elder, but was suddenly cut off by the ever amazing sensation of lips on lips, the sudden burst of fireworks in his stomach, the will and want to never set apart, but it was wrong; oh so wrong. And he was utterly confused, unsure, not understanding the reason for his lack of disgust from having just kissed his youngest brother, for his sudden increased heart beat, and for the rush of blood in a part of his body it really shouldn't be flowing to, at least not because of Takeru.
Thus, mustering all the strength he could find, he swiftly, but as gentle as he could, pushed the younger away, as he pulled himself apart as well
-This ... is wrong ...- his words coming out strong at first, and concluding in a whisper, as if wondering himself, the veracity of said statement.
-No it is not ...- nonchalantly replied Takeru
-Yes it is, and you know that … - replied Yasuno, rapidly raising to a sitting position, distressingly holding his head with his index finger, like they were all so opt to do, as he sighed, not daring to turn around towards the younger
-No it is not … and you should know that- calmly continued the the younger, raising up as well, to embrace the elder's waist from behind., and Yasuno should have shoved those arms away, should have sent the teenager back to his own room, should have stopped wishing that the other weren't blood of his blood, or at least not a male.
-Not only we are brothers ...- persisted the elder, slightly inching his head sideways, as he was now, without noticing, resting his hands on the younger's arms -... but we are also males Takeru ... - pointed out the elder - It is... just.. wrong...- reinforced the elder
-Then why are you not pushing me away?- quickly inquired the younger, and Yasuno was about to retort something, but he was interjected by Takeru -love, in all its forms, ... is not wrong …
-Yes it is ...- quickly retorted the elder, delicately placing his hands on top of the younger's, just lingering on them, as if to tell him, that he wished he could do something about it.
-I'll tell you what is wrong ...- then replied Takeru, abandoning his brother's waist, and silently dropping on the bedhead, waiting for the elder to turn around. Hearing the intentional silence,Yasuno knew that the other was of course waiting for him to turn around, but he couldn't, for he knew that if he had, there was no telling what could have happened, but whatever it was, it would have been without a doubt, universes far from ethical.
-Look at me ...- kindly pleaded the younger, leaning forwards to place a hand on his shoulder, slowly turning him around, Yasuno's head lowered, his eyes closed
-Wrong ...- commenced the other in a firm but kind tone, slowly articulating each of his words -... is having to be forced to hate oneself for what he or she is not. Wrong is believing to have the right to deny or bestow love on the mere basis of a fickle will. Wrong is having to feel so bad, for doing something that feels so right- he paused, placing his hand on the elder's one that was laying on the matters -Wrong … is for me to even try and pretend and fight away the undeniable reality, that I without you, simply cannot be- he concluded, as the elder instinctively intertwined their digits together on the mattress.
-But love... - he then resumed -... love, is never wrong, no matter its simplicity, wholesomeness, brutality, viciousness, strength, weakness, in all its form, there is nothing that can be done about it, happens when and with the person you would list expect it to- he professed, tightening the grip around their enclosed digits -Sure, it can be ignored, fought with one's all might, but I … I shall not fight you away, not now not ever- he confidently affirmed, his last word almost lost, as the elder leaned in to seal their lips together.
-So young, yet so darn smart, you exceed all my expectations ...- smirked the elder momentarily parting from their lips
-Are you proud of me?- whispered the other, reuniting their lips together
-... always will be- assured Yasuno, and he knew, there and then, that there would have been no other person he would have, could have, loved. Abandoning their clasped hands, he placed both is hand on the younger's waist, pulling him closer to himself, as he cautiously glided his tongue on Taker's lips, whom slowl parted them, allowing the elder to explore what they both knew, they inwardly have been wanting to. Ever so slowly ever so lovingly, they continued in their sharing of affections, waking up the next morning arm in arms.
-... can you please leave us? ...- suddenly requested Yasuno, returning to his present, as he successfully unlocked the younger's room
-Yasuno, I do not think this is- tried to interject Akira, but was immediately silenced by Ysuno's serious expression, making him take a step backwards, as Yasuno proceeded inside the room, inwardly rejoicing to the fact that his eldest brother influence hadn't yet wore off; except on one of course.
-Out - drily exclaimed Takeru, who was leaning on the wall by one of his windows, on the wall opposite to the entrance, as the elder calmly closed the door behind himself, to his dismay, already feeling as is he were about to suffocate, like he knew he would, but simply didn't expected it to happen just as soon as he entered the room.
Ignoring the younger request he cautiously walked towards the younger, stopping a few meters away from the gaze averting younger, as he leaned on of the poles of the baldachine bed, facing the whole in front of him -we need to talk Takeru ...-
-I do not want to hear it, get out - plainly retorted Takeru, his arms folded in his chest, and his gaze fixed on some random spot outside the window
-It is not always only about what you want Takeru ...- pointed out Yasuno, glimpsing at younger, who simply shrugged in response -... My, I did an awesome job in spoiling you ...- he then sarcastically added with a smirk.
-Realized the man seventeen years, an a day later … congratulations - cynically retorted the younger, followed with a slow few faint claps.
-... I am getting married ...- Yasuno resumed, pausing soon after stated sentence, as he thought how to continue the unfolding of their soon to be tragedy.
-So I heard ...- replied the other -... but I am pretty sure it is a lie ...- he then nonchalantly replied
-How so? ...- absently replied the elder, turning towards the younger
-Because there is absolutely no way on Earth, you'd last not even a week with Lady Ayaka, or any other person at that ...-simply explained the younger, as he irritatedly exhaled from his nose, shifting his weight on his other foot, as he turned on his side, still facing outside the window.
-Why is that? ...- continued Yasuno in pretense curiosity, who was perfectly aware of such reason, and whose resolve was beginning to waver.
-Because you love me, and I love you … as maybe an eleven year old would state, but yes … it is quite as simple as that- quickly replied the younger, his features still possessed by anger, annoyance, and so much suffering.
-I have never told you that though ...- plainly blurt out the elder, not wanting to sound any cautious or concerned, but concluding that further hurting the younger was the only way to finally set them free from each other.
-If you came here, with the intention of giving me such made up bull, then I suggest you get out now ...- quickly retorted the younger, swiftly turning his glaring expression towards the elder
-I mean seriously ...- continued Yasuno -... until you were young it was all fun and what not, but you really didn't think that I'd give up everything just like that … you are smarter than that Takeru- plainly stated the elder, as pieces of the heart he didn't have were shading away at each made up retort.
-Shut up ...- angrily hissed Takeru, whose gaze could have burned the other if possible - … Get out- he then hissed once more, making sure to apply emphasis on each of the two words
-I want kids, and clearly you are not, able to give me any ...- heedlessly continued the elder, wanting so bad to avert his own gaze from the other's, for it was slowly killing him, but knew that by doing so his cover would miserably and swiftly crumble - … but the sex was go- he tried to state, but was harshly silenced, when Takeru's clenched fist suddenly landed on one of his cheeks, making him fall away from the pole he had been leaning on
-How dare you do this to me!- furiously yelled the younger, quickly shaking his hand off from the pain of the hit, as Yasuno calmly got himself of the ground, patting his clothes clean, and massaging his cheek and jaw
-It is the truth though ...- he resumed, looking down at Takeru -... I figured I sho- he tried to reply, but was once more interrupted by the younger, who grabbed both his arms, and tried unsuccessfully, to move the elder away
-Out! Get the hell out!- kept yelling Takeru, who resumed landing random punches on the elder, who readily dodged most of them, and was finally able to catch the flying and still fiercely fighting wrists, trying to stop him, but only succeeding in dragging the younger against the nearest wall.
-... Always so quick and efficient in pinning me down, are we not? ...- cynically spat the younger, momentarily pausing, at which statement the elder rapidly and instinctively, released the grip he had around Takeru's wrists
-That's the way you like it though ...- quickly resumed the elder, lewdly whispering into the younger's ear, as he lightly pressed his body against his
-Get off me!- screamed Takeru, trying to no avail to push away the elder
-And I think she likes it too ...- lied the elder, as he continued his whispering
-Do not ...- suddenly cried out the younger, the words strangled in his voice, as he strongly hit his fist on Yasuno's chest, who swiftly revolved his his gaze to fix it on the now merely distressed and desperate one of the younger, inwardly dying as he observed the first tear slowly rolling down his cheeks, ans his eyes closing soon after.
-Take- tried to whisper the elder, not finding in his heart to keep on his slaughter.
-Do not … do this to me … do not leave me ...- he blurted out in between sobs -...please- he then whispered, as tears began to stream more profusely, his eyes still closed, and his head resignedly dropped on the other chest -you belong to me, god damn it!- suddenly yelled out the younger pulling away from the other's chest, angrily staring into the elder's orbs- Just as much as I belong to you, and I- he tried to explain, but it wasn't necessary, or at least, that was what Yasuno believed, as he sealed their lips together
-Please do not cry ...- whispered the elder, using is thumb to try and clear away the still streaming tears from beneath the yougner's widened and incredulous gaze -... I can't stand to see you cry Takeru, please stop- he reaffirmed, which statement only caused the younger's tears to uncontrollably keep falling
-Then you are an idiot ...- swiftly stated Takeru -... did you think I was going to laugh?!- he swiftly accused
-I am sorry ...- whispered the elder, who kept his drying motion
-No I am sorry!- quickly retorted the younger -... I am sorry I can't give you kids - he continued, his cry making his words not too clear
-Shhh...- quickly tried to silence him Yasuno, whose guilt was beginning to devour him rather quickly
-... I am sorry that you must hide me the way you do ...- kept on the other, as Yasuno, quickly dragged his head to his chest, kindly hushing him, while they tightly held on to each other, as their life depended on it.
-If there existed an operation that could change me into a woman I'do undergo it ...- calmly sobbed the younger on his chest
-I know ...- Yasuno confirmed, breathing out on his head
-I'd do anything for you ...- continued the younger in-between sobs
-I know ...- reaffirmed the elder, while lulling his body in his arms
-I love Yasuno … - concluded Takeru, tying is best not to sob soon after stated sentence
-I know … and- once again stated Yasuno, gently pulling his head away from his chest, and holding it by the chin, he pushed it up to face his -... I love you too- he concluded smiling down at him, feeling as liberated and at the same time as incarcerated as he never had before, but momentarily basking in the joy of staring at Takeru's big bright smile on his face, which was still being covered in streaming tears, but was as beautiful as a sunny day with rain.
However, he had failed. He was supposed to have somehow broke up with the younger, instead, he solidified whatever they had, when the problem still remained the fact that he was still the eldest heir of the Hayashi family, still expected to take responsibility from him, and as such he need a wife; period.
-Now stop crying alright? ...- he kindly requested, s the other simply hummed, and nodded, while bringing bot his hands to his eyes, trying to clean any trace of tears -there goes my boy ...- concluded the elder
-Are you proud of me?... - jokingly inquired the younger, smiling back at Yasuno with a chuckled sob.
-... always will be- whispered Yasuno, pecking him on the lips -and do remember that ...- he swiftly added -no matter what happens, absolutely no matter what, I will always, and only love you - he then concluded pecking him on the forehead, and embracing him.
After what seemed like an eternity, he parted from the embrace, dearly looking down at his serene expression, making sure to forever engrave such expression in the empty space where his heart used to be, and which he was still intending to leave with the younger.
-I have a couple of announcement to make tonight, so I need to go and get things ready for dinner, and make sure that everyone attends … so keep being a good boy, and get yourself dress for dinner, alright?- he stated, receiving another cheerful hum by the younger, who ave him another quick peck, as he left in direction of his wardrobe.
Yasuno, took another good look at the younger, and soon after walked out of the room, closing the door behind himself, and turning around just to find Akira still waiting outside.
-You did not tell him ...did you?- plainly stated the younger, as he followed Yasuno's walking away figure
-No ...- resignedly replied the elder -... but I have all intentions of still making the announcement tonight, so would you please make sure that everybody attends dinner tonight, Mr. Uke included, I have a couple of other announcements to make, and I need to go and talk to father Byou first-
-Yes, sir yes!- mockingly exclaimed Akira -... staring to look more an more like father, are we not?- added the lawyer
-Please do not insult me so ...- quickly, and cynically replied the elder, as they reached the ground floor, where they roads separated, while he proceeded in his walk towards their chapel, wondering how long … exactly how long could a person survive without a heart.
CHAPTER 9 PART 1
A/N: And here it is! I apologize for the lateness of this chapter, usual stuff school, life, laziness, but hopefully I won't make you wait as long for the next chapter, ne~! (^_^!!). So things are getting angstier, as we keep introspecting our characters, and there is still one of the Hayashi children, who still has a very deep and fundamental secret that will soon have to be disclosed, which will explain the real cause of all this mess... can anybody guess who is the owner of such secret? Special Italian hug and kiss for all of does who guess it I know that most likely there are two people, who don't care about the Italian kiss and hug, being Italians themselves but ...yeah
Well until next chapter then, love you all, and thank you so much for reading, and also for commenting, hope you enjoyed it!