HOUSE OF SIN - The Diary of Uke Yutaka : CHAPTER 17 PART 1

[luna_no_koibito]

Title: HOUSE OF SIN - The Diary of Uke Yutaka
Chapters: 17.1/21
Author: luna_no_koibito
Genre: Human drama, romance, war, angst.
Warnings:  men/men relationship, cursing, sex, violence, incest.
Rating: from PG -15 to NC-17 (Depending on chapter)
Pairing: Revealing this might spoil the story just yet ... suggest looking at the character list (^_^)!
Bands: the GazettE, Dir En Grey, X-Japan, Nightmare, An Cafe', Alice Nine, Kra, SuG.
Disclaimer: I don't own them, and don't wish I did because I'd be sorry for what could befall them （・＿・；）！
Summary:
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Made by lovely_carrion 


CHAPTER 16 PART 2

useless ... eyesore … waste … shame … disgrace … and so on and so so forth ... not exactly the words any child would like to hear from his parents, but his wasn't the case in which he hadn't been called such countless times already, this dinner in fact, was an exact repeat of any of their typical family dinners. The offenses might have varied in intensity, but the degrading intent was always reached, flawlessly, even though normally, Takahiro would just seat through it all the best he could, and ignore the whole parade of insult to his regarded as insignificant persona. It was in his person to be silent anyways, and it perfectly fitted the environment that would surrounded them every time their father came around; silence. There always seemed to be an overbearing silence comfortably settling in the already silent dining-room. Said silence would rapidly overextend throughout the entire mansion, making it possible for any loud expression of joy, or anger, to be clearly audible to anyone in almost any of the other floors of the house right above it, which was Takahiro's main concern; Kazamasa had absolutely not to hear any of it.

Because of that, indulging in what was certain to be an incredibly heated argument with his father, had always been out of the question, for he knew that thanks to the over-silent conditions of the house, Kazamasa would have definitely heard, and be concerned, or even worse extremely shaken, in result. This time however, what with Takanori's successful departure, and the little progressions that everyone else seemed to be making in their own lives, such words stung more than ever, for he might have been silent and ignoring, but it didn't mean they didn't hurt; he simply had mastered an efficient way to master pain, that was all. In addition, today like never before, the realization of the veracity of said offenses, was so glaring that he probably wasn't too concern about the younger having heard, but about what he heard.

If he were Akira, if he were Takanori … if he were anyone else but himself … he wouldn't have to be blankly staring at the paled face of his loved one, with not a single word to defends the wounded pride and honor, which he truly didn't have, for he had long time renounced ownership. He wouldn’t have to feel like each offense had been burnt on his skin, big and clear enough for Kazamasa to stare at, like the younger was currently doing. And as the younger hesitantly took a step forward, Takahiro impulsively took a step backwards, as they stood facing each other at the top of the stair-ramp on the second floor.

-sorry ...- whispered the elder, as his head lightly lowered -... I am sorry you had to hear that … - he added on, taking another step backwards, as the younger moved another of his forward, this time, evident pain surfacing on his delicate feature at the elder refusal to be reached by the younger -... I know we have been through this before … - resumed Takahiro, trying to speak up the best he could, but not feeling a bit of strength as he tried against his will, to stay away from the younger -... but I still do not understand, why you would voluntarily want to stay around me … not to talk about … - he continued, sarcastically smirking as he stopped himself from pronouncing that word -... about loving me ...- he concluded, glancing at Kazamsa's incredibly hurt expression -... maybe you just do not understand exactly what I am, exactly how insignificant a being I am. Maybe … - he stopped, while looking at whatever was above his head at the moment, tightly holding his lips, as he tried with all his might to keep tears he had no idea of possessing from rolling down -... maybe … I was as useless enough to deceive you into believing that anything about me could be worth anything, and I am sorry, I really am, for you to have fallen for me, out of all the shameless shit I have done, this is- he tried to apologize, but was abruptly interrupted by the younger sudden embrace

-Stop ...- mumbled the younger, his face up against the elder's chest

-Kazamasa … really I- he tired to resume again, keeping away the younger, by holding his shoulder, as he wondered exactly how could he have seriously considered dragging down such an amazing angel into his raging Inferno. Yet, said angel seemed to either not be listening or, simply truly not care

-Stop! - yelled Kazamasa, startling the elder -... stop, stop, stop!- shouted the younger, as he began to cry, while Takahiro quickly grabbed his hand, and dragged the younger into his room, remembering that Akira was in fact still around. Once the door was closed behind them, Takahiro, newly felt the younger's arms around his torso, holding tightly - stop … - he newly mumbled into the elder’s back -... stop … treating my love like this ...- he finally manged to state, his voice sounding strained not so much by the yelling but most likely by the fact that he wasn't too accustomed to speaking at all - … stop treating yourself like this … no matter what you say … I am not leaving you, so stop trying to leave me- strenuously continued the younger, leaving Takahiro beyond speechless and surprise - if … if having me go with you to hell bothers you … so much … then- he paused, slowly detaching himself from the elder, and reaching one of his slightly shaking hands to gently grasp one of the elder's -... then why … do you not follow me to Heaven instead? - concluded the younger, tugging the elder's arm just a little, which had been enough though to get him off the door, given how dazed he was with what he'd just heard Kazamasa say

The fact that the younger didn't talk as much, made what just happen, shocking enough, but the words that came out of those blessed lips where something he never though he'd here from him. Words that slowly seemed to be cleaning the burns caused by the repeated offenses lashed by his father. Whatever might he have been without Kazamasa, he had no idea, and if trying to pull him down with himself had seemed like an outrageous thing to do, having to be separated from him was very much preposterous; now he knew for sure. No matter how low he'd fall, no matter how much he'd try to convince himself that it wasn't so, it seemed like himself and Kazamasa were somehow meant to be, which was a very daring statement to proffer, in particular referring to two brothers, but even that, he now understood, he truly couldn’t help. That though, still didn't explain the current situation

-H-how … - perplexedly called the elder, stupidly blinking at younger, as he stared at him from above his bed, where they somehow ended, the younger flat on his back, and the elder hovering over himself -... sorry, I must have just … ended up here- nervously laughed up the elder, while trying to get off the younger, whom however promptly held him In place over himself, successfully pulling him slightly closer in the process -Ka-kazamasa … do you ….- hesitantly inquired Takahiro, suddenly feeling his face burn, at the younger's shy and gaze averting nod

Considering just how much he had wanted to have sex with the lovely creature now willingly laying beneath himself, his sudden feeling of nervousness, and almost panic to perform, would probably be vied as unexplainable, but it had been indeed out of the blue. Perhaps, it simply was that he wasn't expecting this at all in this precise circumstance, perhaps, somewhere deep down inside, he didn't think the younger would have ever want to. Then again, it could have been non of the aforementioned, but the matter of the fact was the he was now incredibly tense, and quite speechless, staring at a still very much gaze averting Kazamasa, whom then suddenly glanced at the elder and spoke

-You … do not … want me … anymore? - lowly and shyly whispered Kazamasa, after which his features instantly changed all sheds of read, while swiftly turning to hide his face between his pillows

-N-no no … it is not like that, I-I want you!- quickly exclaimed Takahiro in clarification, still stumbling on his words from the yet lingering shock, and trying the best he could to settling his violent heartbeat -... I am just a little … surprised … I am ...- he then lowly spoke, as he lowered over the younger's exposed ear - … very happy that you want to give yourself to me ...- he finally whispered, pulling away just slightly enough to observe the younger's ear turn red tomato, which made him tenderly smile, as he finally began to take control over himself; if they were really going to go through with this, someone had to be in control - … but this … - he resumed speaking, tenderly turning the younger around, so that he could face him - … this is something two people do, obviously … what I mean is that both of us really really really want to do this … we must not do it just to make me happy, especially on your first time, do you understated? - he questioned, lowering to peck the younger, whom bashfully nodded, making so very hard for the elder to stop himself from ravaging him. But, Kazamasa was like a flower, thus had to be treated accordingly, it would have meant a lot of patience and self control; but he could deal with that -... why all of a sudden? ….- he then inquired, not that it mattered, but the surprising factor was still very much alive

-... Ta-takeru- hesitantly whispered the younger, at which Takahiro's expression made a sudden dramatic change, from exhilaration to severeness, given as to how the words Takeru, Kazamasa and sex didn't seem to fit in any possible way in the same sentence. It wasn't like Takeru would purposely harm Kazamasa, none of them in the house would, and even though they didn't interact too much, Kamasa was very dear to Takeru, and vice-versa. Simply, the image was wrong, and enough to make the elder interrupt the younger

-What did he do to you? Did he- defensively began to question the elder, beginning to feel somewhat irritated, at which Kazamasa's eyes widened, while he shook his head in denial

-No no … - he quickly denied -... I … we talked … he is sad ...- he explained, with a tinge of sorrow in his voice and expression

-Sad? ...- inquired Takahiro, as he lay on his side, feeling a bit relaxed from the reply, but bemused at the same time

-He … is sad … because he misses … the one he loves … - continued explaining the younger, shifting closer to the elder, and nuzzling his nose in the nose on Takahiro's neck - … he is very sad ...- he stated as he embraced the elder's waist, while closing his eyes -... it was like he was talking to himself, I only listened … “you are lucky” … he told me … “you are lucky because you both do not try to be what you are not, you cherish each other, try the best not to hurt each other … you are so lucky Kazamasa” … -expressed the younger, pausing for a second, allowing the elder to embrace him as well - … he said he had known about us for a while, and he was envious … he asked me whether we have had sex already … I said no, and then he said “it might look scary, and it will be a little painful at the beginning, but because it is the two of you, I am sure he would make you feel like you were in heaven, even on your first time, you two … will be making love, it will not be just sex, it will be wonderful, you will enjoy it and it will be something important for the both of you … so when you are ready do not hesitate to give something which will make both of you happy, that day, make it perfect” - he concluded breathing out as if he had just ran a hundred kilometers. It definitely had been a lot of words to be professed all at once, and all of a sudden, by the usually taciturn painter, but in that particular instant, Takahiro's mind merely focused on the message that had been delivered, which made him tighten his grip around the younger on impulse. Takeru … always choosing awkward subjects to be so articulate and wise

-So, our little brother is playing teacher now uh? ...- chuckled Takahiro, scooting himself downwards to directly face the younger, and softly peck him on his lips again. Now, with just the two of them, it felt as if he had entered a different dimension, all the anger that he had to undertake seemed truly so far, to the point in which he wondered if it had even happened, in the same way in which his brain began to wonder about the younger's sudden eloquence

-I … I will talk … more … I promised ...- expressed the younger, making the elder smirk and look slightly bemused -... I promised with Takeru, that I will talk more ...- repeated the younger in a stronger manner, as if reading the elder's mind. And it wasn't like the taller was weird out, it simply felt like such an abrupt change that he was just hoping the younger wasn't forcing himself to keep doing more things for his sake. Visibly, Kazamasa was making a great effort to “speak out”, which Takahiro could spot in the cute-funny faces the younger was making whenever he had to speak more than one sentence, such as the previous story, almost as if he were swallowing a very bitter medicine; so terribly cute

-Why did you promise that … you must not do anything that you do not feel comfortable with doing you know? ...- gently questioned the elder, tucking a few blond strands of hair behind the younger's ear

-but I want too, we want to get better, we want to improve, we - Kazamasa began to blurt out, at which the elder lightly laughed and cautiously interrupted him

-Woo … slow down … it does not have to happen in a day, do not force yourself okay? Just take it easy okay? … now slowly tell me why … easy now - tenderly warned Takahiro, as if he were assisting a child with his first steps

-We want to get better - firmly stated the younger, nodding ones as if convincing himself of the matter

-And …? … why is that? - politely pushed the elder, whom was now dying to know the entire details

-Secret - as confidently stated the younger, at which the elder blinked his eyes in stupor while sadly pouting - we made a promise ... I am not allowed to say more- specified the younger amusingly smiling

-What is that supposed to mean?! ...- loudly exclaimed Takahiro in feign stupor and offense -... Tell me! Tell me! I am your lover I ought to know, tell me! - playfully whined Takahiro, as he began to tickle Kazmasa's sides, making the younger squirm and loudly laugh beneath him - …this is unfair, tell me, I want to know! ...- continued the elder, as the younger kept carelessly laughing, while struggling for freedom with no avail - … you are not going to give up are you ...- the poet rhetorically predicted as he stopped his tickling, while hoovering over the now breath-catching younger, whom shook his head with a proud smile -... thought as much ...- Takahiro amusingly declared in a whisper over the younger lips, which he then tenderly began to kiss him.

Slowly. Deeply. Said kiss, which smoothly inserted itself in the present atmosphere without any needed warning. Naturally, in the same way Kazamasa's arms where now around Takahiro's neck, perhaps in search for the warmth they knew they would find, perhaps longing for that security they knew they were entitled to. Instinctively, in the same way in which Takahiro's hands where curiously wandering against the Kazamasa's sides -... do you … - hesitantly breathed out the elder, halting their much awaited exchange of affection -... do you still want to … do it?- finally inquired the elder blond, at which the younger firmly and silently nodded - alright … wait one second … let me go and make sure that we will not be interrupted okay?- he informed, getting off the bed to go and lock the door.

Once back on the bed, he newly positioned himself over the younger, and resumed kissing him -... I do not know what Heaven feels like, but I promise, no matter how corny this will sound, that I will make you feel like something beyond that ...- he lowly stated on the younger's lips, making the painter's cheeks quickly flush, as he glanced at the the elder whose his gaze was burnt on Kazamsa, while he slowly began to unbutton the younger's shirt -... do not be scared alright? It will be fine, I promise … - Takahiro whispered in encouragement, while spreading random kisses around the younger's face, until he successfully peeled away his shirt -... does this feel weird? ...- he tenderly inquired, as he began to butterfly kiss the younger's chest all the way to his naval, momentarily looking up to see the still reddened younger shake his head. Satisfyingly smiling at Kazamasa for a quick second, Takahiro then moved up just a little -... how about this? … - he questioned as he approached the younger's right nipple, lightly rubbing it with the tip of his index finger, and proceeding with carefully sucking on it - … does this feel good? ...- he inquired, as he looked up at a lip biting, head nodding and eye-closed younger

Moving up a bit more, Takahiro began to suck on the Kazamasa's neck, as he kept massaging the nipple he had previously been working on, which made the younger release a sudden complacent groan. It was most likely the first time that the painter had heard himself making such a sound, most likely the reason why his hands quickly went to cover his mouth, as he widened his eyes in confusing - do not ...- tenderly expressed the elder, stopping his actions, to gently remove the younger's hands from his mouth -... let it out, that just meant that you liked it … it is normal … just let it out okay? … - he explained leaning over to kiss him, this time a in a slightly more passionate way -... I want to hear it ...- he then whispered on his lips, while traveling his mouth back down to another side of the neck, and his hand in-between the younger's legs. Perhaps still impulsively, Kazamsa's tried to stifle the following arising moans, caused by the hand that Takahiro was using to fondle his clothed crouch, but as the movement increased in speed, the pleasure drastically intensified, resulting to unrestrained groaning-... you can put your hands on me … do not try to keep yourself in check … leave the sheets … you can use my hear … - informed the elder, as he lowered to kiss the younger's clothed manhood, while he unbutton and slid of his pants, same as for his underwear.

Kazamasa was now entirely naked before him; a heart-attack inducing sight. So dangerously cute, so unbelievably his, he could spend an undetermined amount of time just staring, and caressing every part of flesh his mesmerized eyes could see. So beautiful, so delicate looking. The whole aura that was now surrounding Kazamasa hinted to the fact that he was untouched, pure; his to gratify in the best of his abilities.

-Nnh~ ...- intensively moaned the younger, while Takahiro began to lick the tip of the reddening muscle between the painter's legs, slowly lowering into it, then moving up and down its shaft, and lightly smirking, as he felt Kazamasa lightly pulling on his hair. After an extensive amount of sucking, the elder moved back up, and satisfyingly observing the younger's flustered, and eyes shut features, he kissed him -... want to remove my clothes now ...- he sensually suggested, to which enticing words the younger attempted to open his still dazed eyes, while Takahiro guided the younger hand towards the first button of his own shirt - … here … go ahead …- offered the elder, as Kazamasa unbuttoned the first button with a rather peculiar expression, which had in it drunkenly erotic and timidly eager

Once the shirt was pulled away, the elder leaned in for another kissing round, as if to point out how their lips weren’t allowed to stay apart for more than five consecutive minutes -... now my pants ...- lewdly whispered the elder, at which the painter trembling digits reached for the writer's pants, and sort of stalled, as his face turned incredibly red, and his eyes closed -... you are so cute you know? ...- lowly chuckled the elder, kissing his forward, and pulling away one of Kazamasa's hands form his belt, he kissed it as well -... I will do it … and do not worry ...- he reassured, as he raised away to get rid of his pants and underwear -... you do not have to do to me, what I did to you … just - he informed, as he carefully positioned himself in-bewteen the younger's legs -... just hold me okay? - he gently instructed -… I just need you to touch me … nothing more ...-

-L-like ...this? ...- shyly whispered Kazamsa delicately placing his hands flat on the elder's chest, as he slowly grazed them over said muscular surface, with his head lowered, most likely to hide his extremely flustered face -... is this okay? ...-

-... this is perfect but … - kindly stated the older grabbing both of Kazamasa's hands and placing them around his neck -... for now, being this your first time, just embracing me is okay … I just need to feel you … - he declared -... I love you … so much ...- he then professed, copping on of the younger's cheek, whom this time was looking straight into his eyes, while he tenderly smiled

-I love you too … - confidently replied Kazamsaa in a whisper, this time taking the initiative to kiss the elder. Slowly, thoroughly, deeply, as if making sure he'd taking away all the traces of hatred that might have still be hidden somewhere deep inside, where he had sort of the notion, that he only could reach

-Okay … - breathed out Takahiro -... now comes the crucial part ...- he announced, pulling away from the younger, and off the bed, as he went through the drawers in the painters dresser to look for the younger's body lotion. Found the item, he went back to the bed, and held the item in front of the younger -... so - almost dramatically began the elder, gaining all the younger's attention, who was looking at him as if he were to gain critical information for a final exam - … this is normally your body cream … right now … it will become … something to ...- suddenly paused the elder, finding the fact of having to explain sex very difficult, extremely embarrassing, and completely unappealing; it almost felt as if talking about it was more perverse than actually doing it -... something to … help me easily get into you and not hurt you the best I can … - he firmly stated, at which words Kazamsa silently and unmoving stared at him

-… it sounds very odd and wrong, I will admit, but it is said to be one of the best feelings in the world, by … by the world … everyone in the world, would agree … I agree as well ...and you will too … I will work hard so that you willingly agree ...- awkwardly continued the elder, unexpectedly gaining a giggle from the younger, whom apparently found the situation as funny as it sounded for the elder; good lord! that was some sickeningly weird moment - … here ...- tenderly stated the elder, while slowly spreading apart the younger's legs, and placing himself in the middle -... hold your arms around me okay? … if it starts to hurt, just hold tighter okay? … you do trust me right? - he then instructed and inquired, at which he received a confident nod from the younger, who wrapped his arms around the elder’s neck

Grabbing some of the lotion’s content with two fingers, he brought the digits at the younger's entrance, whom lightly hissed given to the coldness of the substance that was now warming up on the muscles encircling his hole - … I will insert one finger now … - announced Takahiro, gently pushing in a digit, at which he felt the younger's arms lightly tighten around his neck - are you alright?- he quickly inquired, receiving a nod from the younger, which he took as a signal to begin the slow thrusting of his finger -... now another finger … this might hurt a little … - he announced, as he pushed in the other finger, and as expected the grip around his neck tightened just a bit, and a little mumble escaped the younger mouth -... sorry … - whispered the elder, kissing the side of the yougner's temple, as he began to thrust and carefully scissor both fingers -... I am looking for something now … something that will make you feel really good … - whispered the elder, as he kept moving his fingers

-Aaah! … - suddenly moaned Kazamsa instantly turning strawberry red, as he glanced at the elder

-There … - announced Takahiro -... found what I was looking for … so now … - he continued, removing his fingers from inside the younger, and collecting some more lotion, he abundantly covered his own erection - sorry Kazamasa … but I will not explaining this … just … hold on tight ...- he honestly informed, and positioning his manhood at Kazamsa's entrance, he then began to push in slowly

-Argh ...- lowly lamented the younger, while holding the elder incredibly tightly, and hiding his face in the crook of his neck, which absorbed most of his pained groans -... just a bit more ...- kept reassuring the elder, massaging the yougner's back with his free hand -... there … done …- tenderly announced Takahiro, as if he had finished giving the younger an injection, which, in a very distorted way, sort of was the case -... now, whenever you are ready … tell me, and I will make you feel much much better … - instructed Takahiro, stroking the yougner's hair

-Now ...- lowly announced the younger a few seconds later, at which command the elder tenderly guided the younger to lay flat on the bed, while still holding him, and after placing both his hands on the bed, he began a slow thrusting motion. Soon, Kazamasa manifested his pleasured response to the elder's thrusting motions, at first lowly and almost composed, then, progressively lustful and erratic as Takahiro resolved to increase the pace

-How is it? … feeling good yet? ...- he whispered inside the younger's ear, whom attempted to nod, but seemed to be concentrating in not losing himself completely, as his hand moved all the way to Takahiro's hair on impulse, and randomly began to massage the surface beneath it. Not capable to keep his self-control in check any longer, Takahiro practically began to pound into the moaning mess beneath him, towards whom he lowered to lavishly kiss, as he drastically reduced the speed of his lower-body’s movements to a slow-motion thrust, while they both lost themselves in eagerly and lewdly explore every inch of their naked and sweaty bodies

-… god Kazamasa … if you only knew how good it feels inside you … I knew it would have been this good … so good … - kept groaning Takahiro -... so good I would have sex with you every single night of our lives ...- he lewdly whispered into the younger's ear, which was apparently too much information for the younger to handle, for he came immediately after. In consequence, the tightening of the younger's entrance around the elder's muscle, brought Takahiro to follow in toe, and come inside Kazamasa, after which he breathlessly collapsed over the still panting painter, and slowly pull out - … how … was it? - he then calmly inquired, moving away a few of the sweaty locks from Kazamasa's eyes

The younger quickly turned bright red, silently hiding his face in the crook of Takahiro's neck -... you really are too cute you know? … making me want to do it again … - chuckled the elder, making the younger press his face stronger into his neck -... okay then, since you are too shy to tell me how it was, I will call out adjectives and you can stop nodding when you think it was not like so …” explained Takahiro, at the which the other merely nodded, still keeping his head well hidden “... okay … then good ...” the younger nodded “... better than good …” another nod “... better than you thought ...” yet another nod “... so incredible that you would do it over and over ...” smirked the elder, at which he received a shy nod from the younger, whom kept pressing his face into the elder neck in embarrassment

-Alright then ...- announced the elder, carefully pulling away from the younger, and getting off the bed -... lets go get you cleaned from … all our love-mess ...-smiled Takahiro, gently pulling the younger towards the edge of the bed, and carried him bride-style towards the bathroom -... is this your first ejaculation? ...- he asked in a whisper, as they walked inside the bathroom, at which the younger shook his head, averting eyes and that; left the elder speechless. In all honesty, Takahiro didn't think his lover the type of person, whom such as himself, would practice self-gratification, and the thought that he might have been doing it thinking of someone else, also was starting to get him quite unsettled, if not somewhat jealous -... w-when … was your first time? ...- tried to calmly ask the elder, placing the younger down, in order to feel the bath tub with water

-A-after … the time … - shyly began Kazamasa, his gaze straight to the ground, with his fingers fidgeting -... I came to your room, and … when I went back to my room … it felt weird there … and Kazuhiro … explained what was happening ...- tried to explain the painter, progressively lowering the tone of his voice, and ending up mumbling against the elder's lowered back, whose jealousy streak quickly vanished, understanding he had been the object of Kazamasa's first ejaculation, and if there were ever any sort of document you could fill in remembrance of said fact, it would be the first one hanging on his wall; next to Kazamasa's first kiss, and now Kazamasa's first time having sex

-I see … - replied the elder, turning toward the younger - … and thank you … this was really great … - he announced, pecking the know also crouched younger, on his still quite swollen lips, receiving a radiant smile from the younger, who bashfully pecked him back -... I will be a better man as well Kazamasa, because of you and for you I will try my best and follow you to Heaven … - lowly announced Takahiro, being this time his turn to blush, making the younger smile even wider if possible -... I do not have a diploma, and going back to school will not do me any good … but I do enjoy writing … so I will try and do something with it … not as prestigious as a lawyer but- kept rambling Takahiro, who was suddenly interrupted by a Kazamsa, who tightly hugged him and tenderly whispered

-Anything you want to do … if you work hard in it, and want it … is fine ...- stated the younger -... I will always support you - concluded the younger, whom was as well tightly embraced by the other, whom couldn’t stop being touched by such devotion, which he knew he didn’t deserve, but would still accept as a sign that somehow someone somewhere did love him after all; and he was completely fine with it.

-Would you leave this place with me? ...- hesitantly inquired Takahiro, receiving a single firm nod from the younger, as they remained in each other's arms, his back leaning against the bath-tub -... we might not be able to see everyone for a while … would be really okay with it? … you do not have to if you do not want ...- tenderly observed the elder, as he decidedly stared into the wall in front of himself

-It is alright … if Takahiro will be strong, I will be strong too … - reassured Kazamasa -... if we are together, we will be alright … we will definitely be alright - reinforced the younger, making the elder, tightening his embrace around the younger, while truly believing, for the first time in a very long time, that things would have truly been alright. As long as they were together, everything would have been just fine, and suddenly, Takahiro felt like he ought to be grateful for a lot of things, included those parents, whom did nothing but keep enforcing just how much of a waste his life was, because thanks to them, Kazamasa was brought to this world.

Thanks to them, for every you are a complete disgrace to this family there was a if we are together, we will be alright; we will definitely be alright.

CHAPTER 17 PART 2

A/N: Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaai *sigh * …

I know, I know, I know … (I give siseja  the right to stab me once with katana m(_ _ )m ).

So here is only part one, still working on part two, but thought I should at least give you this little part ne? Takahiro, and Kazamsa finally have their first night, yey for Kazamasa (and good job Takeru, poor baby, but will see what is going on with him in a chapter or so), and finally Takahiro's got off his butt, and has plans for the two of them. Good right? Next is obviously the couple of the moment Akira and Yutaka …. hehehe … wait a little bit longer guys~! Thank for reading and (BEING SO FRIGGIN' PATIENT)

Much Love -LnK♥(~_^ )/-