Now back to the normal ramblings I suppose.

I find organizing my thoughts and stuff helpful to not only pass the time but also keep my thoughts in order.

So Monday I made a list of things to accomplish this week...

Empty 1 room of the corner house minimum... probably start with the kitchen.

Make a supply list of things I need to save for and ( Read more... )

As my best friend is gone... I realize I dont have anyone to help with grooming... and Voodoo is getting quite... fuzzy... thankfully I did his face recently so that not as bad... But its gonna get pretty crazy... pretty quickly. Then on the 19th Im getting yet another poodle... things are gonna get quite hairy really quickly!!!

So as messenger is ( Read more... )

I suppose the puppies make me happy.  It's a lot of work but the reason i enjoyed being a breeder was seeing the happiness i brought to others lives...
But lately ive been questioning if it's even worth while anymore... hence the hiatus.


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Not that its truly relevant to anything currently going through but it is food for thought and a good quick read.

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Things that make me happy... this is a hard one for me. I have a hard time seeing myself happy as my happiness usually involves making someone else happy. Its like someone giving me a gift card and saying "Buy something to make you happy" well... buying gifts for others makes me happy. Or buying stuff for the pets. Or buying stuff for the ones I ( Read more... )

I feel like it was almost too good to be true... and all the good things must come to an end... at least in my experience. Nothing good lasts forever. But I do find it hard when I see or do or think of something... I want to share it with her and cant....

I mean... I probably could. She didnt block me or anything... But I know Im the last person in ( Read more... )

Yesterday I was called a Bitch... and Jacob called me stupid because we were careless and got caught. My sadness is my own fault for being stupid... but I guess hes right.

But I was called a Bitch... previous mention of fear of Sarah, Ive been hounding the guys to get chores done that should have been taken care of a long time ago. So I got called ( Read more... )

My fears for you... is your happiness. I truly want you to be happy no matter what it may cost me. But are you truly happy? Or settling because its easier? Either is understandable.

You mention her becoming bedridden... I see this happening. Sooner than later actually. I fear reading her cards because I dont like how her energies make me feel so I ( Read more... )

Its hard for me to build relationships because I take a long time to show emotions and sometimes have difficulty doing so. As you saw in the beginning it was quite difficult. But then you actually took the time to get to know me. How I did things. How I react to things. You noticed the small things. You let me build until I was comfortable, and you ( Read more... )