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I LOVE ALCOHOL.
alcohol (n.)1. A colorless volatile flammable liquid, C2H5OH, synthesized or obtained by fermentation of sugars and starches and widely used, either pure or denatured, as a solvent and in drugs, cleaning solutions, explosives, and intoxicating beverages. Also called ethanol, ethyl alcohol, grain alcohol. 2. Intoxicating liquor ( Read more... )

It scares me, knowing she's growing, that she's in this world filled with hate and pain. She is so beautiful, such a charmer, she'll have her way with the world- I know it.

But she is beautiful and to have her in such a tainted world. Such a tainted lifeI sleep easier now. The lunar pull is hard on my body. But that's my body, not my mind. My mind ( Read more... )

She's 7 months pregnant today. That means 2 more months to go. 2 more months. I can wait 2 months.
I can wait 2 months.
I can.
I can.
I can.

Right?

She's beautiful. Gods, I'm a father. I'm a father. I'M A FATHER.
It's almost too much reward for what I've done.


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They say that some people aren't meant to be married, they're just not cut out for rings and gowns and children.
But some are made for it.. they live their whole lives waiting for someone to share everything with.. problems and happiness.
I think I'm one of the second kind.
Well, let's hope, seeing as it's a little late for me to be the first kind. ( Read more... )

[Block Tonks]

I get to see Tonks tomorrow.
I finally get to explain that it was all just a misunderstanding and maybe, just maybe, she'll take me back ( Read more... )

Fuck.
Shit.
Cock.
and Balls.

Off to get pissed. Hurrah!

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Last night I sat high in Grimmauld Place my best friend's house- high with him, mind you- and I realized it was not enough.
Marijuana was not enough. I was still depressed; still confused; not high at all.
So I realized I have to quit. Because there's no way I'm going to start something else. Something worse.So I don't know what I'm going to do ( Read more... )

[Note to Tonks]
I don't know what's going on with me, and until I do know, I don't think I can trust myself around you.
I wish I had the answers, I wish this wasn't happening..

I love you. With all of my heart, mind, body and soul ( Read more... )