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The Gift
My thoughts are like beautiful butterflies, when I try to catch them, they fly away.
I am paraphrasing the words of a youth who was telling his therapist what it is like to have an ADD mind. Reading this gave a voice to my own experience.
It opened a door inside of me to acknowledge, accept and hope to find what might be made better and celebrate ( Read more... ) -
Shards
I want to attempt to address people's projections and observations
which they have both lovingly and thoughtlessly shared with me over the years.
I have internalized many of them as mandates, missions, and yardsticks.
More than anything they have been painful reminders of my inability to find my path and walk down it.
"You should be a writer." (My ( Read more... ) -
The Dream
I spend my life waiting to wake up
What will it take?
And then there are my dreams.
I show up in the dreams without something:
a home, a clue, permission, directions, allies.
I show up and its always some very interesting place.
My soul is obsessed with places,
Institutions!
palace, high school, temple, campus, old academy,
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The Day
A fog settles and I am lost.
I knew where I was going, of sorts.
I feel like I am always scrambling, searching
and trying to sense what it was that I was doing,
thinking about or wanting to do.
I wander around the house looking for clues.
I may get through my day alright or
even accomplish something, but I often feel like
I might break
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Sightings
This morning I saw a huge grey raccoon in my back yard! Broad daylight too. It is pouring rain today. Last night I couln't sleep. This is rare for me but while I was up late, I spotted my 11 year old housemate awake too. I wonder if the racoons sleep schedule is off as well?
He was gorgeous. And I say 'he' because of his relative size and the ( Read more... ) -
tired and overwhelmed
I have today off from work and school. I am trying to decide how to use my time. I have so many things that I could do for fun and that are on my list of stuff to take care of. As usual, the dillema is primarily whether to stick around the house, go to the city to run errands or go to school and work on. Well, and then there's going for a drive, ( Read more... ) -
I need someone to know my whole story, perhaps my journal will
I am so tired and overwhelmed this week. I just want to sleep! I am very excited about birds singing and spring air this week despite my exhaustion. I am looking forward to writing more when I am not sleepy.