I....I really don't want to be writing this, but what choice do I have? It's go to come out so that I don't drown it it. not that it's bad but...we'll just hear me out. *sighs* I think I'm really starting to fall for this guy, My Boss actually. Sam. it's so extremely unexpected and I find that I'm even nervous about it. HAHA, Imagine that...After ( Read more... )

Hey, so I guess it's been a while since I've written anything on here. Life has been an interesting journey for me in the past few weeks. I became so fed up with working at Macy's that I quit a week ago. I am way too good for retail. They couldn't put me on comission and I talked to management at every level to try to cooperate with me and improve ( Read more... )

Ahh peace! I love these times when I sit and write out what's on my mind. I was just outside a moment ago contemplating the nature of reality. Is reality truly as perceived by the individual? A myriad of multi-colored expression and interpretations? Or is there not another grande reality that transcends all perceptions? And if so, how does on ( Read more... )

So, This semester didn't start out the way I had hoped. I came back from Canada Absolutely broke allthough very content in every other way possible. I thought that I would be working as a singing server when I came home but as it turns out I need more stage experience before I'm actually qualified to do something like that *sighs* so as a result of ( Read more... )

So, It's two days before I return to the States after a two week excursion to Canada, Land of the green, peace and serene. It's been quite a journey that's for sure. This trip was exactly nothing like that I planned when I started saving for it in the middle of may. *sigh* I was really looking forward to THAT trip. But this one, the one I actually ( Read more... )

So....It's Three AM and my mind is swarming with thoughts. *sigh* I have many things going on inside my head, many questions that seem impossible for another person to answer. One of the hugest questions that I've been asking myself lately is whether or not recovery is for me or not. It's been nine months since I've first became sober and I've had ( Read more... )

Okay, so I just turned 21 on monday, and I had six months of Sobriety Three days before my 21st brithday. I'm really proud of my acheivement, I know only one person who stayed sober during the transition from illegal to legal drinking. I think being sober is a great way of life for myself..but there are some problems that have been arising lately. ( Read more... )

Hmmm...so tomorrow i turn 21...it's going to be intresting. most of the day will be spent studying...and it's going to be fun finding an alternative to drinking since it's not in my list of vocabulary of verbs lol. it's been fun so far...I went to see a movie and eat desert at tower with Melissa Last night which was fun. We saw brokeback mountain ( Read more... )

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! that's what my brain has been screaming at me for the past thirty minutes, along with "WHY DO YOU ALWAYS SELF-SABOTAGE?!?!" *sighs* so.... today was great, went to school, came to hang with Melissa and do homework, went to a meeting, and then......the trouble....I went out for Dollar Ice Cream at baskin robbins. It starts out ( Read more... )

Finally My day is about over!! I some how survived with a thirty minute power nap and a two hour sleep session. Aside from that i've not slept in the past two days. I had so much to do between school, and driving to davis sponsors meeting, driving people home etc. I had to think about five cups of coffee today just to survive. At long last im home ( Read more... )