it doesn't feel like christmas

these next few days will probably be her last on this earth. my mom asked me if i was going to the funeral. and if i had something to wear. i hate funerals. i haven't been to one since maybe 4 or 5 years ago when tad's mom died. and i wasn't even close to her or part of her family. i got to see her saturday. took a lot of pictures of her in the ( Read more... )

i've been in such a weird mood lately. besides the fact that i've been getting these waves of nostalgia running through my body every so often for the last three or four months, i've recently been getting these feelings like i've been punched in the chest. and its not a physical hurt like one from a scrape or bruise. its a hurt that just takes you ( Read more... )

i love him

he loves me.

well, the summer is coming to a close. a LOT has happened to me over the course of these few months. a lot has changed for me, and it leaves me in a totally new comfort zone, that i am still trying to adjust to....i don't really know how my next year is going to play out ( Read more... )

or is davey havok looking more and more like a drag queen these days? maybe that's the new scene or metrosexual, but it just aint working for me ( Read more... )

i want to start by saying i hate it when people like something just because it is trendy ( Read more... )

i am very sad

promise me
if we both die violently
that the blood dripping from our chin
is a symphony

i wanna be with you forever.
know that.