all is good. i is happy.

i had to put moo down yesterday. he was an old cat and i knew this was coming. i was hope he would pass peacefully at home, but he started having labored breathing and i didn't want him to suffer. they are cremating him. i miss him. he was the coolest cat ever. he hated being away for me and was the last part of my single life. rest in peace ( Read more... )

i woke up and got really sad this morning. i had a dream about a childhood friend. i am a navy brat so i have lost a lot of friend though out my childhood,but there was one friend that i made at 8 or 9 that i didn't lose touch with till i was 26. she was a junkie. she struggled with addiction from age 13 till i lost touch with her. she is the ( Read more... )

I'm pretty content. we still have not moved everything into the house but we have the important stuff. all of the remodle stuff is done. i have started working as a nanny for a sweet 3 month old girl. combined with eriks raise makes money less tight. all in all things are pretty good. :)

so much change. still have not fully settled into the house, now we need to find a new renter for the mother-in law. have a couch camper and am hoping to start nannying in nov. need to buy tickets to vagas for justins b-day, he is turning 30. blah

so i have not gotten my period this month. so i took a pregnancy test. it was neg. i want a little girl but not now. i have never taken a pregnancy test with out wanting it to be positive. i am sooo happy i am getting an iud on the 5th.

im pmsing, this make irritable(i want to punch everyone in the face), moody, and sad. this always hit right around times when i have to be around people. pms has really bad timing. it makes me view the actions of others in a bad light. i become over sensitive to the things they do and don't do. i react badly and have bad dreams ( Read more... )

i have been thinking about bullies. i was never bullied in school, my brother and many of my friend were, but not me. i was plenty weird enough and have never been a group person, but the bullies left me alone. i think in elementary school i was too oblivious to notice if i was being targeted for bullying. i had my friends that i played with ( Read more... )

liam van anthony bittenbender. liam is celtic for william,means protection, van means family of, anthony is my fathers middle name (no choice here, family tradition. do you think its to long?

so im having another boy. i am stuck on a name. i told my mom i was thinking about liam and she is very happy with that. leif is kinda more karens then my moms and she feels that this one gets to be hers. so i guess i will have leif and liam. but i can't figure out a good middle name. i need to come up with a Swedish or Scandinavian name that ( Read more... )