I sometimes forget that I'm not perfectly fine. That probably sounds ludicrous right? How could you forget that you aren't happy and wonderful and all that? Well I can. I have these periods of time where everything is good, I'm enjoying life, nothing is bringing me down and I forget. I forget that I am liable to snap at a moments notice. Then you ( Read more... )

I should shower more often. *gasp* what? You didn't think I showered every day did you? I'm a tree hugging earth loving life preserving hippy type person and if there's one thing I won't sacrifice it's a long hot shower. I love my long hot showers. So to compensate for it and because it's not like I'm a big buff trim taut n terrific gym goer, I ( Read more... )

My feet are killing me they are so swollen, my hands protest when I write because they are so swollen. Rolling over in bed is a heinous mission I'd rather not have to undertake anymore, but I can't stay on the one side too long or my hips get deep throbbing charlie horses in them. But that's usually ok cause I need to get up and pee anyway ( Read more... )

Well it's been a good long while since I came on here and made a post so thought it was about time I did so. It's almost time for me to birth this baby and after all the research and self-work I've been doing I really hope to have the calm and blissful birth I'm hoping for. I need to trust that my body was designed and is more than capable of doing ( Read more... )

Well I'll hope 3rd times a charm and maybe then they will all get along? Not as much bickering as another is added to the mix? What am I talking about? I'm pregnant of course! Yes indeed. 9 weeks along according to the stupid doctors who include the first two NON-pregnant weeks as part of the pregnancy so in real terms, this embryo is 7 weeks baked ( Read more... )

well now the subject line just makes me think of Staind, however it's referring to how long it's been since I posted a blog here :o 5 weeks according to the LJ tracker thingy. Ahhhhh well, such is life ( Read more... )

I haven't been completely happy for a long time. I'm thinking it's getting to be time I started letting myself be happy and not worrying about what needs to be done to let myself be happy again. Many people agree with me, while others are saying fight. I don't know if I have any fight left. I don't know if I even WANT to have any fight left in me. ( Read more... )

Gig today. Gig next weekend. 2 gigs in December. Life is good. Keep on rolling in those gigs universe and get me into the positives ( Read more... )

So we were driving down the Gateway Mwy yesterday, traffic was tight. Stop, go, stop, go, speed up a little, stop, go, stop and so on. Sitting there stopped, waiting for the next go period to get through that stupid bottle neck where they have two lanes merge in a matter of 1km taking us from 4 lanes to 2 when all of a sudden the car is jerked ( Read more... )

My heart goes out to you and yours.

You're in my thoughts Magdellin xo <3