I have no idea why i am updating this, nobody checks it. I have been pretty bored, but after christmas with my money i went out and bought an engine. It is pretty cool, a 396. I hate how I post only half of what i want to say, keepng the other half back inside me. Buut the things i want to say are not things anybody on this earth would want to hear ( Read more... )

MephiticNeurosis: Shakespeares heart and feelings in fat bastards body, that's me.

MephiticNeurosis: I have to sit in the shadows, admiring her, HELL I LOVE HER, but I cant do anything about it.
MephiticNeurosis: Hell is the absence of love.
MephiticNeurosis: So i am in hell.

Okay, now that I have kind of sat around and thoght about it. I think I might drive to Pueblo, leave the stereo off and all, just so i can think. I sit for like 5 minutes and than I have to go do something and it gets really annoying. in other news we (mostly kevin and my dad) got the 82 running. it sounds really good. I feel bad though for them ( Read more... )

Ever known that person that with her smile it could melt you? And it kills you to see anything but a smile on their face? God I wish I knew what was going on, because this is killing me.

What do you gusy think, shouldI forgive her? I mean, it will be months, maybe even a year before I can fully trust her like I did. I need help, I need to talk to Jenny, see what she thinks. I have been thinking about this for a long long time, and I am always confused by it. I really hope I can come to terms with this problem, it has been bugging ( Read more... )

I am so excited for Christmas break and for Jenny to come and visit, I think she was supposed to fly in last night. I shall give her a call tomorrow at like lunch, see what she is doing. Other than that I just finished studying for my bio final tomorrow, I have been focusing on school so much this year,and I am actually doing good(for a slcaker ( Read more... )

I would love to re-open communications to that person. But I cannot get hurt again like I last time, what she did was wrong no doubt, but I have been friends with her for so long that it is odd to not have her at our little group and in my life. But what happened the first time was her fault, if I let myself be hurt again it is my fault. Boy I wish ( Read more... )

You all must conspire with me to go see Wilhelm Scream, Bouncing Souls, Blackout Pack and Rise Against with me on December 9th. It is at the Fillmore(Sp?) and I dont care what your excuse is, you are going! BAWAHAH that is all for now.

School is driving me absoluitely insane, it is hard to care anymore. I need someone to tal to, it seems like I never get to talk to anyone anymore, it is horrible. I mean, I always get to talk to Josh and brent and Jona at lunch, but it isnt the same. Have you ever had thoe conversations where you just connect and it isnt on a regular level. You ( Read more... )

I have been feeling really anti-social and just didnt want to update. Lets see, well, I have Kari's B-day present, guess I ought to sneak it into her locker or something, if I give it to her straight up she will break it. She told me to get her that Goldfinger, so I did. Just in time to have her hate me, go figure. So I think I am gonna slip it ( Read more... )