Turns out, yesterday was 4/20.. mmmm good day.. i went to school, but i didnt GO TO school haha... i saw Alex a few times, the first time he wouldnt look me in the eye, the second time he lit up when he looked at me, and it kinda looked like he went to kiss me goodbye, and caught himself before the gesture got a chance to withhold itself... i dont ( Read more... )

well alex and i broke up ( Read more... )

so turns out i have no friends right now except for my boyfriends friends... who i guess are my closest friends now... Shannon has been a real friend and she makes me extra happy... oh yeah boyfriend = Alex Holst.. yeah my little skinhead being retarded for a minute ::2/5/05:: haha anyway... yeah i dont know so much about my head anymore.. its ( Read more... )

weird dream last night, of course involving stephen and incorporated every aspect of my life right now into it. So i went to his house, and we were just talking and then we kissed, which was bad and i said "hey you have a girlfriend, that was bad" and he leaned in to do it again, and i said no.. so then he sat me by the piano and i kissed his ( Read more... )

Now isnt that a waste of time? Well i devoted the last 3-4 weeks to doing the part of mayzie perfect for my audition, and i did well, which i think is safe to say considering the comments i got afterward.. so yeah, and apparently "i deserved mayzie" no... i guesss i didnt because the precasted, half assed audition by shelbi got it.. which was ( Read more... )

last night was new years ( Read more... )

well considering no one reads this it really doesnt matter what i write, so i think i might like claudio back ( Read more... )

yeah i do have to update.. so here it goes ( Read more... )

i just updated justins journal... which ISNT always happy, i actually got kinda mad when i was writing it ( Read more... )

what do you do with someone's ex boyfriend? when he cheats and lies and makes them want to kill themselves ( Read more... )